Bahagia dalam sedih

Assalamualaikum....

             My title today is like tajuk lagu melayu right? hehe... kalah dalam menang, hidup dalam mati, doa dalam lagu.... hehe.

The best selfie for today.. quite satisfied even my tudung is quite bulat.. stfian tudung must sharp.. hehe..

                 So, yeah actually i'm stressed doing my assignment. Just realised that 26/7 is Tuesday.. Afiq's birtdayyy my brother... still the same like last time, end up with writing blog..

            Today is 24/7... last 5 years where were I?... of course at RMC... ish2 sister nie dah kenapa ingat ... I think I am the only one who remember and I hope nobody will read this... Maluuuuu.

No laaaa. like this, today... Fariha and me went to Bangi, and we go through the road that reminisced me of my school's dayyy ... tha'ts all   +   yesterdayyy meet with srikandi... hehe srikandi sangat.. budget laa sister nie. They are srikandi not meeee..................

               So, what I want to write is...in the stress day with tough test... Allah still give me a chance to smile... It was NICE... Masha Allah ... Alhamdulillah sangat.... 

             What else I wanna write ea??? haa really miss Tropical fruit company... Only meet Intan and Emylia... I miss to see Wafiqah.. Cannot find her ... Rindu .., Amirul, Hanis.. 

 Bella and Intan call me Diya, Hanis and dayah call me Kiah.. so funny.. Rozie panggil apa ntah... but mostly call asmadiyana.... hehe...

      I want to dedicate the song see you again. 

For Fariha... thanks a lot ... Sorry for not helping you ... lets us finish our english term paper... FIGHTING!!!!!!... see you next time.. for GL gathering cannot go laaa Bella said no point laa if go no you guys.. feel awkward ... X pe we pray so that Allah will gather us one dayyy.

sedih

           

                          Right now I'm doing my assignment, but cannot focus. I feel very guilty. I 'll write everything here and hopefully nobody will read. Of course everyone want to be treated well. Yeah, me too but sometimes I have problem. If I'm angry, I will show it with my action. if i'm sulking then it means i'm angry or I'm not treated people nicely. I dont wanna be like that. I feel like I wanna meet counselor. Its hard to control that feeling. I keeep crying. Only Allah know how I feel.

                          maybe i'm not a good friend. I like to have guest coming to my room, to stay for one or two days . its okayy. even I'm a little bit not comfortable and quite shy because people know what i'm doing but its okay. I can accept that for one to two days. This time, my friend wanna stay at my room for one semester. As I said I like privacy. I'm not comfortable people share compartment with me. I lost my freedom. I'm not good as others. I never bother about the payment. Its about my life. Its hard for me. But, one of my behavior is easy to get kesian and diffilcult to menolak when people ask for something. When she asked to stay... I felt x sampai hati.. then just accept her to stay in my compartment. I'm trying to be good. Everyday have to acting and pretending that I'm okayy. with a smile face. yeah I'm keep run away from staying at my room just to avoid hurting her. I know its hurt. But who is wrong in this situation? I'm not treating her well and I knew its hurt. I don't wanna be treated bad as well. I'm afraid what you give you get back. I'm afraid if one day i'll be treated like that................ I'm really stressssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

                       I hope my friends around me don't angry at me and treated me well.

                      Now i feel bad, please pray for me. I m afraid of doing sins. If i'm wrong please forgive me. Yeah again I'm not a good friend like others, but I have my kelemahan also. I feel guilty towards Syahadah and towards you a little bit. i'm dreaming of you just now... I hope I can talk to syahadah nicely after this. She is secretive. I'm still thinking why she dont wanna register for room. The reasons I cannot accept. if wanna pray jamaah just come to my room or go to masjid. If feel alone sorang2 kat bilik then come to my room once a while. Like I go to Fariha's room once a while if i'm talking for two days. I hope I dont make people in trouble because I LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLLLLLLL.

Raya 2016

        Assalamualaikum....

Today is 12th July equal to 7th Syawal 1437.... Alhamdulillah dapat sambut raya tahun nie. Allah masih panjangkan umur. Tahun nie especially, hujung2 Ramadan ramai yg pergi bertemu Ilahi. Rasa macam x elok nk sambut raya lebih2... walau happy macam mana pun ingatlah Allah . I wanna remind myself actually. 

            Alhamdulillah, this year, Allah izinkan kami satu keluarga sederhana besar i mean my father's family untuk gather bersama sama. I love that suasana yg sgt susah utk dijumpai. This year everybody came back to Penang hometown . So, it quite meriah... Alhamdulillah. Even I am already 22 but still got duit raya. Semoga Allah murahkan rezeki mereka yg sudi bg duit raya for me. I felt my uncles still treated me as children. My lecturer also said that even you already big and have your own family, you are always your parents' babies...  I just thinking of how it will be when i already married. I cannot imagine seriously.... . its okayy lah no need to think of that.

          What else, I feel happy to meet all my cousins and pakcik makcik.. having chit chat... Alhamdulillah...  okay change topic to real life .. I was extremely into DOTS... everyday I will sebut captain Yoo si Jin and Surgeon major Seo dae Yong. I dont know to spell sarjan in english its like pakar bedah. ... Before this laa i dont know why? .. but now not anymore the feel of enthusiasm or enthusiastic all are gone... suka sikit2 je... hehe dah laaa. doakan saya ye...

                                               The Cousins.... love you alll

Third year First sem

                          Assalamualaikum....

Alhamdulillah... Allah give us chance to live until now.. and today is 8 Ramadhan.

Usually after finish of every sem i'll update blog but this semester, I would like to upload video that I've made myself... actually I'm in the process of learning how to make video. i wanna use adobe primiere pro but forgot how to use... I have to learn... recall back... Pray for me so that what i've learnt I can contribute to ummah to Islam... ameen

But the pro show is .... 

I'll update first, then I'll use another apps laaa x best ahhh pro show nie... ingt line oren tu akn hilang bila publish tp x pun... sob sob

2015

Assalamualaikum...

             I would like to share 2015 story.. even today dah 3oth january.. dah almost one month in 2016. 2015 was so awesome. It teach me A LOT... cannot describe. Best dapat join Team DnT EMSS and Journalism club. ... even both are quite contrast. I've learnt a lot. Bak kata Ain, every person in that team taught me "something". .. Sometimes kena bully but sometimes I bullied people also... Bully main main je. Tapi mostly I laaa kena bully. Gembira, menangis tu biasa laaa.... Alhamdulillah everything run smoothly. Best dapat gi Langkawi, Terengganu, agd ,agm with all of you was a great memory.

              Other than that, I've met e few people that surprising me.......... I mean yeah... I never thought to meet them. First is Fizrie, my friend at RMC in 2011... during STF - RMC had a programme. .. I met him coincidentally at STABAZ ... hehe ...  Then, I also met kak Alina.. my beloved kakak. Last time we met I think also in form 5... Its been 4 years. Ingat Kak Alina x datang sbb x register online pun... rupanya datang juga program JC tu... Thanks kakak for supporting Journalism carnival 2015.....

            2015 also taught me to take care of a baby. Sangat x sangka yang aku akan jaga Thaqif aqil for almost 1 sem... Jaga dia dekat bilik Fariha, bawak gi meeting and many more with Thaqif. Miss him a lot. Fariha ajar aku jaga Thaqif .. and after tu mmg aku jaga fully hehe.. ambik dekat ayah dia... especially bila dekat mahallah ... kalau hari Jumaat, mmg akan jaga dekat bilik fariha... aku baru relax2 dekat bilik tiba2 Fariha call datang Nusaibah ... Thaqif datang... aku pun kelam kabut siap panjat tangga Nusaibah ... ambik Thaqif drpd ayah dia... anything for you laaa Thaqif .

             There are a lot more stories that happened on 2015 but until here I can tell okay... byeee

^_^ dah 0kay

Assalamualaikum....

              Alhamdulillah post semalam baru didelete oleh aku sendiri beberapa saat yg lalu... dah boleh move on dah rasanye nie... Alhamdulillah... terima kasih buat yang mendoakan....

              Therefore, I would like to share a little bit of motivation or knowledge from a book title "Pimpin Aku ke Syurga" by Afdholul Rahman, but not now laaa let it be draft for a while then I''ll come back inshaa Allah. ...

               I come back .. alhamdulillah.. but I don't bring that book .. therefore I would like to share about my naqibah's writing. She is very daebak.. always with #sistabah... I really like this post, therefore, I would like to write back here.


                  Nabihah's writing:

Honestly speaking, semua orang akan rasa rendah diri dan tak layak untuk buat amar ma'aruf nahi mungkar bila kita terfikirkan dosa dan maksiat kita dengan Tuhan. Isk isk.... Tapi bila teringatkan hidup ni all is about learning, gagahkan juga diri untuk berdiri sama tinggi dengan sahabat sahabat yang lain walaupun dalam nak menggagahkan diri tu sentiasa menghatui diri adalah dosa - dosa.

Bersyukurlah Rabb kita masih mencampakkan rasa malu dan gerun dengan dosa - dosa sendiri. What if that feeling has gone? Mesti sampai bila - bila kita akan seronok berterusan bermaksiat dengan Tuhan. Kan??

Sampai bila nak terus hanyut melayan rasa hati "rendah diri", "tak layak", " tak soleh", " tak bagus", "tak matang" semua ni? Sedangkan musuh Allah tak pernah berhenti mengatur strategi , kita masih ralit melayan emosi. Dahlah.. .. Selagi mana Rabb masih memilih kamu, ketahuilah Dia lebih mengetahui akan dirimu. Duhai hati, jangan pernah underestimate Allah! Allah lebih mengenali dan mengetahui diri kamu selama - lamanya lebih daripada kamu tahu.

Dunia ini, kehidupan ini, kalau sentiasa qawiyy tak terbenam langsung, tu bukan kehidupan di atas planet Bumi. Mungkin tu cuma kehidupan makhluk di planet marikh. Kalau tak pernah merasa sukarnya melawan nafsu dan sukarnya meninggalkan dosa- dosa yang menjadi tabiat kehidupan , kita takkan mampu jadi manusia yang kuat.

 Kerana kita akan bertambah kuat, apabila melawan arus. Orang yang hidup under pressure akan lebih strong daripada kehidupan yang tidak pernah dihentam ombak. Tersenyumlah dengan kesukaran diri dalam mendidik sekeping hati, kerna yakinlah suatu hari nanti, Rabb akan menjadikan kita hambaNya yang Rabbani.

 Sebab, Allah sentiasa tahu apa hajat di hati kita. Kita nak jadi apa mahupun hati kita benci dosa yang mana. Teruskan usaha, kerana kehidupan ini diciptakan Tuhan dengan penuh harapan.


.... semoga dapat manfaat. ^_^



                             

ANA SAYANG ANTUM SEMUA TAU...................

yg lain yg x de dalam gambar pun ... terima kasih kerana menjadi part of my life

              

Travel

Assalamualaikum

           Okay.. lately... when I scrolled my fb and ig,,....I saw my friends went for travelling... they really benefits their semester break.. Some of my friends.. went to STF,.. went to Japan... 

           I would like to go for a travelling as well... but my parents not allow me to do that except if I go for University's programme... but Alhamdulillah.... since I enter the university, (cfs and undergrad).. I've been joined a few programmes sambil jln2 about 3 times.. hehe

           I just came back from Kuala Terengganu actually... x de lah baru sngt.. last week. Okay.. during CFS, I went to Mersing... for a programme but  Ican't remember the name.. we do some gotong royong around the place... with my beloved special unit friends.... thay are Ejad, Atiqah Zaki, Teha, Nina, Mimi...

           Then, Last sem, I went to Langkawi for BTN..... of course this was the best trip.. hehe because of certain reasons... I learnt a lot... one of them.. is jangan over sangat gelak.. control sikit... x baik gelak bnyk2.. aku nk jadi mcm kak Izzah...

           Lastly, of course to Terengganu... hehe... mmg best bila dpt jln2 dgn kawan2 yg sekepala nie... kitorang mmg kaki bergambar.. mmg memanfaatkan masa yg ada untuk bergambar sepuas puasnya...arachi????... ada juga yg x best

Moral of the story.. jadilah pengembara jgn jadi pelancong... hehehe bak kata Qi dlm citer The Streets.

Rasa mcm best klau pergi semua sister jeeeee . setiap trip tu ada yg best dan yg x best actually...

bersama sahibah tercinta... Fariha, Ardeela, kat langkawi ada Sapinah, Kak Fatin, kak Nahawan dan kak Anita.... gambar2 yg sopan je... yg selfie x yah laaa