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                                Assalamualaikum. .

Lama x update blog. I feel like I wanna write what I felt. 2018 is / was a very tough year for me . I never thought that I'm still here . Actually dh lama nk resign dari pjh ni. This place hurts me a lot. Tp nk buat camne punye la bnyk jawatan kosong dkt jonstreet,  indeed ke kat mne2 pun aku apply satu pun x nak panggil aku. ..sedih sgt.. Kdg2 depressed teruk juga. Especially bila sorang2. Bila dgn kwn aku pretend la like I'm okay nothing happened .

         Aku prnh baca yg tnda Allah sayangkan kita bila semalam kita sedih harini Allah bg kita happy. Tp mmg mnggu ni agak stress dgn org2 dkt office yg buat aku ni mcm kuli dorg. Aku mmg down sedih sgt . X sabar nk kluar dari situ. Tp bila ptg2 jmpe mira dgn pijo aku happy balik. They make me laugh. Ble jmpe salsabila pun aku mmg luahkan la apa yg trbuku di hati ni. Hopefully aku masih mmpu bertahan . Tp jumaat haritu aku x expect pun ada bnda gembira trjadi. Aku ingat nk balik naik bas je kol 6.30 camtu. X nak susahkan mira nk hntr aku jauh. Tp mira message aku pulak tnye balik ngan sape then aku pun x tau nk elak camne trjoin la dorg makan dkt cafe bwh. Ingat mira dgn pijo je tp ada akak abg office mira pijo juga dgn az pun ada .Trkejut juga. Tp akak2 ni sporting je mkn & borak dgn budak sl1m mcm kitorang ni. Semoga Allah murahkan rezeki akak2. Then, pijo nk gi ioi ambik phone dia dh siap repair. Pastu pijo ajak mira ,az and aku tgk wayang citer bumblebee. ..aku pun on la lgpun esokenye cuti. Then naik kereta mira and gi ioi. Dlm kereta berlakulah prbncangan mcm2. Aku ni bila dgm mira & pijo mmg akn ckp bahasa utara la . Tp ada az pulak. Hmm lntaklaa aku nk juga ckp bahasa aku. Penat ckp kl. Tp mmg best la kluar dgn korg.  Thank you for making me happy after i felt down. Thank you mira pijo az . Bumblebee so cute. Sesape nk ajak kluar bgitau laa ea hehe. Dh lama x jmpa shahira, Fariha, rahah . Hmm dh x nk jmpe kite ke?
     

Stress

                        Assalamualaikum
 So today I wanna tell everything what is inside my heart.

Entahlaa rasanya there's no more human sudi listen to my life story. Only Allah understand what I feel.

Last week was a very stress week for me. I really cannot stand to be there anymore.

Aku ni x bersykur ke?  Atau x sabar ?. .  Aku selalu ingat ustazustaz ebit liew ckp Allah bg musibah sbb Allah nk bg nikmat yg besar lps tu. ..

Tp aku x kuat sgt nk hadap org2 dkt office tu. Semua kerja aku x kena. Semua salah. Aku tau la aku bodoh. Budak sl1m ja. Treat aku mcm kuli. Aku cuba utk x nak benci dorg. Aku sakit sgt di treat camtu. Bkn treat mcm kuli je, treat mcm.. X tau nk explain. Kerja aku semua salah semua x kena. Dorg je yg betul. Pastu nk marah2 aku.

Tolong laa. Nk resign sgt. Hmmm. Siapa yg baca nk mntk tlg doakan saya please . Nk keluar drpd PJH secepatnya. Terlalu bnyk toksik.

Aku asyik x de selera mkn. Sbb stress sgt dgn dorg. Dgn kwn2 pun senyum fake je. Balik nangis.

Lg satu isu ni isu jodoh. Kwn2 sl1m ni selalu dok bncg pasal bnda ni .Entah laa nk buat camne belum jumpa lg .

Srikandi

 Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum,

      Alhamdulillah Allah give me the time and the feel to write right now. Actually, I wanna write about yesterday because I was so excited to meet my high school friends.... I think I've met few laa right especially those in uia gombak. However, Those I met yesterday were those who studied abroad. So, of course laa we did not see each other for a very long time. I felt shy juga laa. They studied oversea, I studied at Malaysia je..hehe. However, the awkwardness tu sekejap je. Then we became like dulu2. I feel that we are still the same. Seriously perangai sama je. Nothing change. Rindu nk lepak dkt dorm mlm2 bergosip. Yg paling x boleh blah si Mimi ni. Ya ampun bawang sgt... haha... So funny of you. Mimi nnti dh bertugas jd doktor, mesti patient happy je. Hehe... hopefully we can have a sleepover maybe one day... If i'm still here. They are still talking about rmc. haha cannot move on ea. I thought they already forgotten. Haha... I'm not bawang ing you girls okay... Just stating what I felt. Anyway congratulations to Izyan Syuhada for being top 10.

          Tajuk wajib when reunion of course selagi x kawin selagi tu topic nye akan pusing2 situ juga laaa... Alright. I thought i am the only one who sengsara at workplace. But actually no. Dayah and Hanis also telling me that they feel quite the same. Yea.. this is life right?.. Zera pun ckp the same. So the conclusion is we pray to Allah for giving us strength to keep strong. However, I'm still with my principle. I really wanna go out from pjh as soon as possible. Please pray for me to get job near to my house. I don't like here.... I knew I should feel very grateful and I must be yakin that Allah will always there for us. Allah giving the best for us. Allah knows the best for us. Allah sayang kita.

         Till we meet again inshaa Allah ... anyong...

Toughest challenge.

Assalamualaikum....

    Actually this post was in August I think. It was at my office. At that time, I was very stress and I wanna write but my friends came to me and discuss and everything so I cannot la write.

     So now, I wanna tell everything that I felt. I knew I should be very grateful. Alhamdulillah I feel very grateful for what Allah had given to me to get to join Sl1m programme at Putrajaya Holdings. I got the chance to live at Putrajaya. I went to the gardens, I went to the Merdeka parade celebration and many more.

      However, I am still normal human being. Honestly I wanna quit from that program as soon as possible. Aku stress dengan orang2 kat department Financial Accounting tu. Katanya masa awal2 dulu nk train like an exec but x pun. Aku nie x lebih dari jd kuli je tau x... How mauch i hate them. Memang ada juga few things yg aku kena buat monthly so at least aku entrusted some works but dorg treat me mcm budak intern. Memang la aku x reti nk mix sgt dgn dorg. Aku diam je x ramah mcm org yg before2 nie. Dorg buat mcm aku nie x wujud. Pastu sis sorg tu siap nasihat aku you have to try to mingle with us even you hate how much pun. X kan lah asyik nk kwn dgn budak sl1m je. So what dorg yg x sudi nk kwn dgn aku ckp kat aku camtu...

   X tau laaa. Semua pun perangai mcm tu... Asyik nk marah aku je. Dgn Berry x pulak nk marah tengking camtu.... Berry assist exec juga. contract after dh abis sl1m. Tp mmg beza treatment aku dgn dia. Sbb aku mcm x pndai nk melawan . Ikut je.. Berry mcm lbh berani and garang...

   Yg penting aku mmg nk kluar dari situ. Biar padan muka dorg .... Aku mmg tgh dok try apply kerja. Almost everyday juga laa, pastu yg uia buat semua aku gi. Dh bnyk ambik cuti utk try apa ja peluang yg ada. Aku yakin Allah akan bg aku sesuatu yg lebih baik. I really hope to leave pjh as soon as possible. Apa yg Allah bg tu yg terbaik... Aku yakin Allah akan bg aku kerja baru. Rezeki Allah tu luas.  Pray for me please

My feelings

Assalamualaikum...

      This laptop really ruined my mood. I have to keep more money to buy a new one... Cannot bear with this laptop anymore... Tooooo much...

           Okay, selamat hari raya everyone. Since I am at home, so have wifi i can write this blog. Okay.. cam biasa laaa... Alhamdulillah... tahun ni dapat celebrate raya with family. Tahun nie nie mmg a lot of different laa kan ... Ramadan aku pun tahun nie very different buka puasa merata2 not like usual. Few times with sl1m friends at padang perbadanan, few times at surau presint 16, at media prima office fariha also and many more yg penting not with pjh staff yg berlagak tu.. 

             Alhamdulillah Allah granted me with the 19 sl1m friends that are really awesome.. They helped me a lot. Before this I was alone there but now alhamdulillah I have friends. I love all of them. Even at office and rumah sewa quite unhappy, I have them to make me smile.. Bukan laa nk puji lebih2 but there I only have them... To salsabila thank you very much be my kakak. When I already rapat with someone then they'll know how I am.. I'm not laa cannot berdikari i don't know laa but that's my behavior. Even with my siblings pun people will say that I am adik. My perangai really not like a kakak. If I go shopping, I cannot go alone, I don't buy. I need to ask their opinion, asked those who accompany me to ask the seller and many more... Thanks sgt salsabila teman kite jogging juga... hopefully dpt teruskan.. Tapi sara, mira and nufa ajak pindah rumah. nk duduk sama2. I wanna go out from the house because that kakak very berkira... I cannot stand. I just learn duduk rumah sewa. I am not used to it. Before ni mahallah kat uia lain... bertimbang rasa laa sikit.. apa salahnya masak kalau balik awal. ni x tnggu juga aku yg balik lmbt utk masak... adoyyaiii.. entahlaaa.

          Sara and Atirah always tumpagkan I. Thank you sngt. Mila ajar kite mcm2. Yg lain pun.. thank you bnyk sgt tlg.. After nie x tau laa bila lg boleh jumpa... Time raya ni pun semua dh krik2. Nnti dh abis sl1m lg laa krik2... rindunya kt korang. Sedih sgt2 x dpt bergambar dgn korg masa hari rabu b4 raya tuuuu... 

               Hmmm what else.. To everyone that I made mistakes please forgive me. To my family .. lagi laaa thank you sgt2. Mmg x terbalas jasa ... love all of you... semua org syg family... jodoh tu rahsia Allah. Allah will give on the right time at the right place... Yg pnting jgnla nak main2kan hati org yeee... nak ckp nak x nak ckp x nak.. serious laa sikit bnda camni jgn nk main 2 bg hrapan palsu... 

     Okayy byee

Gambar raya tahun lepas ... hehe .. 

Luahan Perasaan

Assalamualaikum....

      So today.. I wanna tell everything that i felt. Since en. sazali who is our trainer for classroom training said that women will feel relieve or release when they express all their problems. They just wanna be listened then they can find solution on their own. 

      Lets get started. The world of working is not as good as study life. It is totally different. I feel like wanna give up already. Now I worked as sl1m trainee at PjH. During our classroom training, everyday is fun you know like going to class even we have to do presentations all the time... Now we already finished our training and have to go to office to work. I realllllllly don't like it. For me I feel like they are quite berlagak laaa. I don't know laa if only me feels like that. However, my friends also said like that. I thought atirah pnye department je yg x kerek. Yg aku nie... ya ampun.... harapnye x de lah org pjh baca ea... entahlaa i don't know until when i can stay at that place. I reallly determined to go out from pjh as soon as possible. Pray for me please. i wanna stay at my place jee. Nowadays it is not easy to get a job. So, I must be grateful but sgt menderitaaaaa.... hmmm nk jadi freelance je boleh x??...

       Next problem is housemate rumah sewa nie berkira sangat... this is the reality of life.. thats all laa

okayyy bye

Alhamdulillah

Assalamualaikum

     .. hi semua.. In this month of April I and all of us got a lot of wedding ceremony invitation right?... Barakallahu lakuma. Semoga Allah memberkati pernikahan kalian. 

                Before we start, I would like to ask everybody especially me to start our day with grateful. Waje up in the morning say Alhamdulillah Allah still give us the chance to live to ask forgiveness from Him and increase our taqwa.

               Alhamdulillah. Last week I was very angry kan?? Allah is very kind. Allah baik. Allah sayang kita. When He gives us ujian, then it means we are very lucky. Allah bg ujian tanda Allah sayang. Allah concern with us. Kalau dengar ustaz Hanan Attaki or Ustaz Ebit liew mmg menangis laaa. X boleh nk control2 lagi. 

               Last week was quite an emotional week for me. Cry everyday... However Allah is very kind. He give me smiles. Suddenly on Saturday, Allah let me to meet my beloved sahibah uia that already graduated. Everybody has their own life and everybody was stress. Not only me okayyy. So we went to Dataran Merdeka main buih... and the one that lastik2 tu. Hilang kejap stress dpt jadi kanak2 for a while. Memang nk hilangkan stress patutnya baca Quran or listen to the bacaan ayat suci,. berzikir. However, that one also a therapy kan ?? But don,t go overboard laa..  After that we went to surau nusaibah. Katanya penat nak balik tidur. But kalau dh gather camni, bukan selalu dapat. Dekat syurga nnti boleh .. so apa lagi bersembang la  x de la membawang sangat... mungkin fikirkan masa depan... Dengan fariha yg x habis2 membuatkan semua org terhibur... Macam buat karangan bahasa melayu ayat I .. X bole blah. Last week pun best, dapat kluar mkn2 dgn fariha dan rahah cumanya rushing laa

               Minggu nie pulak, ada kawan2 baru Sl1m masuk... so I am not alone. Before this only 4 person and only me a girl so I have deal with them 3 boys laa. But now, there are 7 girls and I hope more boys are coming. Balance la sikit... okay let me tell in malay lah ea.. On Monday tu.. the two boys nie wanna meet the new girls laa kan but they arrived late, so we met at the lift je and only talk with me and at that time pun I don't know what we were talking. Dah lama x deal dgn brothers nie.. whatsapp boleh laa dpn mata x tercakap ... but now dh okay kot. On Tuesday we have jamuan otside with all finance team. So on Wed tu, we went to cafe like on Mon. Then suddenly I saw idzni. I thought it was him laaa because not really ingat sgt muka . Then, kebetulan they are looking for table. So, Atirah and me pun waved our hand calling them kan... then they pun join us makan sekali... then I knew who is hazman and idzni. Then, we pun sembang2... and quite funny laaa the dicussion... sabar je laaa... hehe... nice to meet them... 

              so, this weekend I have to finish my work. Last week Shahira, this week me pulak. Lagu maher zain yg album ada lagu Medina tu sgt mengingatkan aku pada uia ... How I miss my undergraduate life... lagu ara johari tu pulak tringat dkt tmpat intern.

      Okay... salah silap harap dimaafkan. yg baik boleh dicontohi yg buruk boleh dijauhi.

gmbar baru upload guys, so sorry x dpt nk ltk dkt blog.. budget ada org nak tengok...