Me

Assalamualaikum,

   Okay today yeah actually since few  days ago I feel like wanna write because there so many things I wanna say but I just tell Allah. 

   It is about my part time job as a dropshipper. That job is really not ME. I never like a job which I need to promote things or anything related with marketing. Even my blog pun I never tell everybody to read, just share with some close friends. But I have toooooo. My current job is not that stable. I work in the tourism industry. With current condition, I can't do anything. My position pun not that important pun. Then.. I should prepare for something bad. I ave to have income to pay some monthly commitments. So what else I can do?? I don't have my own transport. So I can just find job that no need for me to move from one place to another. I think dropship is the only thing or work that I can do. However, I think I just wrongly join that company. Because in that company, they really push you and I really never like their culture. I just joined . Consider laaa.. lagipun dropship dia dah ramai. Pastu nk kena compete lagi. Susahla nk explain. Yg pasti this things made me cry everyday.. In this business, Dropship is level paling bawah, then you can naik jadi egent and so on. Masa first nak join jd dropship tu dia dh tnye kenapa nk join?? klau setakat nk tambah income buat kerja lain pun boleh tambah income. Klau nk join mesti cita2 tinggi . Klau org tnye kenapa join sbb nk jadi jutawan.. Ubah mindset... Tu semua kata2 diorang la yg aku x boleh hadam dlm hidup aku. Aku stress giler rasa hidup x bebas ... Wajib buat marketing everyday....  I just nk join dropship yg chill chill je .. xyah ar nk over sgt. Aku bukan la nk kutuk dorg .. I just wanna luahkan apa yg aku rasa.. 

    I mmg nk quit ar x lama lagi... Hopefully cepatla boleh dpt kerja baru.. Rasa serabut sgt hidup. Aku tahu Allah bg ujian mengikut kadar kemampuan kita. Kita kena sangka baik dgn Allah. Allah baik. Allah sayang kita.... okay bye

Ramadhan 1441 h

Assalamualaikum 

   As everyone aware, that we are celebrating Ramadhan in the MCO situation for this 2020. So it is something that we never had before. Never la I think sepanjang 26 years ni. It's okay we should be grateful. Everyone is being positive 

and be grateful. There must be hikmah for this. 

    Actually it is a bless for Muslims. I feel that. Allah really give us the time and opportunity untuk lebih dekat denganNya. I personally feel bless and grateful. This is the first time we ( the whole family)  praying jemaah. Feel like crying 😭. The last time we pray jemaah like this is during we stayed at quarters and I still in primary school. It was very long time ago. And now Allah give us the opportunity again... Baiknya Allah... kebetulan aku pun dh balik stay dgn family and adik aku pun dh balik duduk sini and adik yg dkt U pun balik b4 Pkp.  Nobody of us pun yg kahwin lg. 

( inshaaAllah one day Allah takdirkan utk kahwin then kahwin la and now just usaha gain the knowledge and never stop doa) So now everyone is here and we pray jemaah. I wanna keep this memory and the kenangan in this blog. Semoga dapat tingkatkan ibadah kita pd Ramadhan kali ni ya. ALHAMDULILLAH 

Movement Restrict Order (MCO)

Assalamualaikum..

      Its been a long time I'm not updating my blog. Actually I feel like to write this just to keep memories of this phenomenon in my blog. As we all know, the MCO started on 18/3/20. Everybody got shocked including me cause we never undergone this kind of situation. 

      There are so many things that people are worried about. Works, family, groceries and many more. So, on the 17th I went to work as usual because need to get the answer from boss. At last the management said that we need to clear our annual leave. Then , what can we do right. Just clear all of our leaves. We are just the employee right??... Then when PM announced that the MCO would be continued to the second phase. So, the hotel close until 30/4. For the time being laaa. because we don't know what will happened in the future. we have to take unpaid leave. So skrg ni the problem is for this second phase of MCO, one car only one person. You know that I don't have my own car. Everyday I will tumpang akak siti, or ayah, or my adik or just naik bas rapid. So how??? Bosss suruh dtg kerja tp aku x de own transport nk ikut rules tu. Japgi roadblock LAGI..... Faham tak??? stresssssss....................

        One more thing, i think i dh pernah tulis pasal dilema ni. You know my dream jobs available bnyk dkt area KL selangor. But still I don't have my own transport to go to work. Klau tmpt yg ada LRT ok lg. Yg dkt Sepang, Bangi,... masa dkt Putrajaya dulu pun dh seksa tau. Publicn transport situ teruk sgt.... Sedih laaa fikir... Aku sedih bila nmpk iklan kerja kosong kerja yg aku nak tp aku x boleh nk apply sbb dkt Kl or selangor............

oklah byeeee

2020

Assalamualaikum

   How fast time flies... 2020 already and January almost done. I'm already 26. My azam this year are the same as 2019 because yg 2019 pin belum tercapai. Its okay... Keep on usaha, doa and tawakkal. Allah will give on the right time.

    Okay, the story is about my life right now. Alhamdulillah. During end of 2019, I keep on applying jobs via a lot of medium. So alhamdulillah, I got a few of interviews that to be attended including for PSH dkt Putrajaya. Some at KL area, some Penang. My parents only allow me to go to Penang and KL only. So, I was very sad cause I was desperate need a job. Okay then I got one IV at Penang. The Interviewee explained to me the tasked I need to do. So, I was quite interested with the job. Just that the gaji is not that much maybe the engineering company is not a big company and also it is quite far at Bayan Lepas. I need a car to go to work. So basically that is my big problem laa until now. So after that I've been offered work at hotel quite near la to my house. At the same time, I've been offered to the engineering company. Actually, I prefer to work at the engineering com because I can gain more experience. But what can I do, I need to follow my parents. Now i still work at hotel as account receivable. That is for temporary laa. Not having any plan to continue here. However, I dh start okay with my colleague here. Sama ada yg dkt front desk, which are my adik2, at Sales, and my department, akak siti and esther. However, biasa la ada juga yg perangai x berapa okay. Entahlaa... you know people outside baik. its not I am suuszhon to everybody. this people said bad about this people and some other people said bad about others pulak. I don't like laa this situation. X baik laa nk buruk burukkan org. mngadu dkt bos org ni x buat kerja... I didnt expect that chinese working culture is like this. I thought chinese people are bersatu padu. I mean they will support each other. I've been told like that. Hope that no one will read this. takut la nowadays semua nk viral. I just write what I feel. I treat this as my not so diary.

Okay lah.. enough laaa I pray we are save from the Corona virus ameeeen. B4 that always remenber to always listen to our parents barulah hidup berkat. Okay... 

Be Grateful

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum...

     Okay actually I am in the phase of being positive. Well we are human. Feeling down, mental break down is something usual right? There are no people without problems. Everyone has problems. Actually going through the problems also a phase to make us mature right?... 

      I remembered En. Sazali once share with us that he went to listen to a kuliah maghrib and the ustaz was telling about a hadith. But can't remember who narrated the hadith and the status of the hadith. However the message is good and yeah... the hadith has the message of our destiny. It is like this. Kalau lah kita semua diberi peluang untuk tengok jalan hidup semua orang ats muka bumi ni, kita mmg x kan rasa nk jadi org lain. Kita akan bersyukur sgt dgn jln hidup yg Allah dh tentukan utk kita. For example kita akan rasa best nya jadi dia. Tp kalau kita tau jln kisah hidup yg Allah dh tentukan utk dia, kita x kan rasa nk jd dia. It is something like that. Hope it is understandable. As muslims, we must believe that Allah dh susun jalan hidup kita dgn sangat indah. Ujian yg Allah bg pun ujian yg kita mampu untuk hadapi. It is the matter of trust. Put your trust in Allah. 

        I feel very grateful for my life right now. Of course I feel down, sad. But remember dalam surah As Sharh Allah ulang dua kali bersama kesusahan ada kesenangan. Kadang2 tu sedih la bila doa x dimakbulkan lagi. Usaha, usaha dah, doa, doa dah.. tp nothing happen. Jd kena pujuk hati kita ckp Allah akan bg on the right time at the right place ok... I should be very grateful aku masih boleh bernafas, bercakap, melihat. Aku ada family, ada kawan. Aku x boleh bayangkan klau aku hidup sorang2. Aku bersyukur sbb ada org boleh terima perangai aku. Aku appreciate sgt org2 yg x lupa aku. Always be with me dlm susah dan senang. Kalau boleh aku nk sentiasa sebut nama kalian dlm doa aku. Semoga Allah merahmati kalian.

       Okay that's all I thought.

It's me again

Assalamualaikum..

     Ustaz Ebit Liew said, when Allah gives u a very huge ujian, then Allah want to give u a very huge nikmat. I hope I'm still strong to face all this. It is a very hard time for me. Its okay.. pray for me please...

      I miss my pjh friend. I really wanna go to aniz and yen punya kenduri on 28/9 and 29/9. I really wanna meet them but if i still don't get a job, then I feel very shy to meet them. I though at that time I already get a job but i dont know laa. Penat laaa mcm ni. Bukannya nk merungut. I should feel grateful and blessed. However, ckp mmg senang nk buat tu tidakla semudah kata-kata. Nobody feels me... 

     Disebabkan I miss them a lot. I wanna post a lot of our pictures here not IG, fb... twitter maybe..

  Mira, ema, fina, athirah, kak dayah...

Az, mira, athirah, nik, fina, ema , pijo

I think I need this

Am, haikal, pijo, mira

Aina, sara, iklil, mas, ipah, mila, mira

Shikin, nik, athirah, kak dayah, wani, farah

Pijo, ema, mira, mila

Ni ramai sikit celebrate sara dpt kerja baru... untunglaaa........... Ijeni, ema, aina, nufa, fina, pijo, az, amy, mira, ayie....  so yg x de nadzrin, aniz, hazman, athirah, mila, mas , ipah, iklil.    

Hmmm cukupla tu kot... nk post kena cari gambar yg fully cover aurah.. susah sikit.. klau ada yg terlepas pandang jgnla tgk ye... nnti aku kne tanggung dosa... okay laaa semoga kita dpt berkumpul lg mcm ni dkt syurga nnti okay.. yg paling best kita gather semua bawak partner masing2 yeee... teringat Abil ckp knape nk sedih sbb kne berpisah... nnti kat syurga kan boleh jumpa lagi.... mohon maaf salah silap yeee.. pray for me. jazakumullahu kheir.

me

          Ya Allah, jika hari ini aku berasa kecewa, berasa terluka,
Sedarkanlah aku bahawa Engkau memiliki rencana yang lebih indah buatku.
Engkau tahu bagaimana lelahnya aku berjuang,
Bagaimana kerasnya aku berjuang,
Bagaimana sulitnya aku berjuang,
Namun ketika segala ikhtiar yang kulakukan pada akhirnya tak sesuai inginku,
Ketika pada akhirnya aku kecewa kerana aku tak dapat meraih mimpiku,
Jangan biarkan aku berputus asa daripada rahmatMu ya Allah,
Jangan biarkan aku berasa kecewa padaMu,
Jangan biarkan aku berpaling dariMu,
Jangan biarkan aku berhenti memohon padaMu,
Sedarkan aku bahawa Engkau telah menyiapkan sesuatu yang lebih baik.
Sedarkan aku bahawa Engkau telah merencanakan sesuatu yang lebih indah buatku,
Sedarkan aku ya Allah, agar aku senantiasa tetap berharap hanya kepadaMu,
Agar Engkau menjadi satu - satunya tempat untukku memohon.


Credit to the unknown author from FB.


Buat masa skrg ni aku mmg x contact siapa2 kecuali org cari aku sbb aku segan. Aku sorang ja yg still cari kerja x dpt2. Org lain semua dh berjaya. Aku mmg segan sgt nk jmpa siapa2 pun skrg. Nk komen ig ke nk upload status ke semua aku x buat sbb aku x nak org tnye aku tgh buat apa skrg??... Sedih laa hari2 down. takut dpt mental illness pulak. I hope I am strong to face all this. Biasa la iman manusia kan turun naik. Kejap rasa okay kejap lg rasa dh x da harapan. Camtu laa hidup ni. please pray for me. :)