Pandangan Allah vs Pandangan Manusia

 

                                                  Assalamualaikum..

     Nampak tak stress aku dh dkt tahap mana?? dua kali aku tulis blog harini ... Okay laa ceritanya aku sedih.. hmm sedih lagi..  Aku rasa down dan macam dipandang hina laa oleh manusia sekeliling aku. Ye laa aku kn dh tua tp still x berani nk drive.. kiranya x cekap lg laa drive. kereta pun x dak lg. kerja pun biasa2. duit pun x bnyk.. bnyk laa bnda boleh org look down kt aku... aku pun x tau kenapa nak terasa sgt.. ye laa dkt office aku skrg ni aku yg paling tua. Yg lg dua org lg muda tp depa dh boleh drive dh tunang, dh nk beli kereta.. aku rasa sgt aku ni betul2 ibarat kuman yg x nmpk pun kewujudannyaaa... Mungkin aku terlebih sensitif tp aku terasa sangat... serious..,

Aku nk belajar drive. Tp aku asyik susahkan org. Klau ada kereta sndiri kan okay.. ni nk drive kereta org. satgi rosak laa dh dia x boleh pi kerja esok. lgipun nk mntk dia tolong pagi2 ahad teman and ajar sat drive.. kena susahkan org lg... 

Tu laaa betul2 down.. emosi x terkawal skrg.. sebenarnya aku nk tulis tajuk curhat.. tp tukar pulak.. sbb haritu ada dgr saudara Aiman Azlan ckp kan.. You choose laa nk focus pandangan Allah or pandangan manusia. Manusia sentiasa tgk result. Dia x kn nk ambik tahu kesusahan struggle kita nk go through semua tu.. Tp Allah tengok usaha kita... Allah x kata tak kawin or x pandai drive x boleh masuk syurga.. Allah tahu apa yg kita dh lalui.. Allah Maha Adil.  

Td pun shahira ada share dgn aku satu perkongsian.. perjalanan hidup kita ni dh tertulis di lauh mahfuz. Bila kita grad, kerja kat mana, bila kahwin, dgn sapa semua tu dh tertulis. kalau belum masanya then belum laa.. kita ni hamba.. Allah yang Maha berkuasa.. sabarlaa wahai diri ini..

Percaya lah dgn takdir yg Allah dh tulis ... Kita merancang dengan cita 2 tp Allah merancang degan cintaNya... Allah tahu bila masanya yang terbaik.. Pandangan manusia x kan boleh bawak aku ke syurga pun... x penting pun .. biar laa manusia nk pandang aku sehina hinanya punn...

Rasa macam banyak nk tulis tp mcm dh x dak apa pulak.. Doakan la aku kuat laui ujian ini. Allah xkan bg ujian yg kita x mampu lalui.. Dulu masa training, sir ada share satu hadis yg dia dgr dkt masjid, which is kalau la kita boleh nmpak perjalanan hidup semua org, kita akan tersangat bersyukur dgn takdir kehidupan kita .. kita x kan mampu nk laui jalan hidup org lain. walaupun dia dapat apa yg kita nak,, rasa mcm untung nyaa diaaa tp sebaliknya kita x kan mampu laui apa yg dia lalui.. inimaksud hadis tu laaa.. hadis tu yg sbenar and status kesahihannya aku xpasti.. tp nk ckp kita kena bersyukur dgn apa yg Allah takdirkan untuk kitaaaa... Percaya laaa apa yg Allah bg tu yg terbaik.. Allah baik.. Allah sayang kita semua..

malu pulak share kesedihan hidup di sini.. habis laa semua org tahu.. nasib baik x da pembaca pun blog ni..

Kucing kiriman Tuhan

 

                                                                 Assalamualaikum....

             Terasa macam nk menulis sangat... mungkin aku introvert kot. Jadi bila menulis rasa release. Okay nak tulis pasal kucing kesayangan aku ni. Hmmm x tau nak bagi nama apa.. aku panggil dia sayang atau awak.. Atikah panggil dia baby.. hehe.. jangan la rasa nk termuntah pulak dengar panggilan untuk kucing yang sweet camtu.. 

           Okay kenapa aku tulis kucing ni kiriman Tuhan?? sbb dia datang secara tiba2. Allah hantar kucing tu untuk kami bertiga. Okay.. Semenjak PKP yg Selangor tu kn.. mmg banyak kucing yang lepak dkt laman rumah tu.. Kitorang pun suka bagi makan. Mungkin kucing jiran atau kucing jalanan. Memang port kucing2 tu makan beramai ramai.. Makan dalam talam bertambah berkat katanya.. So satu hari ni...

         Aku dan atikah dan aina nmpak kucing ni. Memang tak pernah nampak and kucing ni cantik and macam tak reti bergaul. Macam pemalu gittew. Dia asyik lari menyorok dalam lubang. Kitorang ingat dia kucing orang or kucing jiran. Nmpak mcm kucing peliharaan.

 Esoknya tu ...dia stay luar pintu rumah. Pastu bila syaafiqah pulak nmpk, apa lg dia bawak masuk main2 la dgn kucing tu. Pencinta kucing la katakan... Pastu.. lama2 aku pun seronok main dengan dia.. dia bersih, pandai jaga diri.. 

        Aku suka kucing. cuma penakut sikit. takut kena gigit. So, dia ni baik tau.. bulu cantik.. semua org bila datang tanya ni kucing sapa? sejak bila bela?.. setiap kali org ckp nk bawak dia balik mmg dlm hati aku rasa sedih sangat... jangan bawak dia pergiiiii... aku pernah terfikir suatu hari nnti tuan dia datang cari nak bawak balik kucing dia. Mungkin kucing dia hilang .. aku rasa aku mesti sedih sangat laa .. sedih .. Sayang betul dkt dia... buat perangai camna pun, kejap je marah pastu sayang balik.. dh macam anak pulak layan dia..

         Aku pun skrg penuh phone dgn video dan gambar dia ..cute sangat...  harap dia akan stay sini smpai bila2.. dia memang x pergi mana setakat ni.. ada je kat luar tu.. hmm ajaib kan.. tiba2 je.. x pernah ada pengalaman main dgn kucing, mkn dgn kucing, sayang kucing..tiba2 Allah hantar kucing ni. X tau dia datang dari mana...

Ni masa mula2 dia datang sini.. malu2 lg

skrg dh lain dah perangai.. dh pandai berinteraksi ..Okay laa setakat ni dulu.. nk simpan dlm blog supaya nnti boleh baca . Kalau ada umur yang panjang.

Saja bawak dia jalan2 naik kereta.. sampai pening2 dia

End of 2020

 

                                                                     Assalamualaikum

           Saya sedih... Sebenarnya sekarang tengah dengar forum daripada kak Najwa dan kak Ha. Kak Najwa ckp kita tak boleh simpan. Kena luahkan.. I feel like it is better for me to express it here. Maybe laaa... Sebelum tu, kak ha share cerita mengenai Saidatina Maryam. Kisah hidup Maryam penuh dgn ujian. Berat sgt ujiannya. Seakan akan nak depression. Tapi Allah datang memujuk Maryam. 

            Kak ha cakap .. Apa yg kita cakap mempengaruhi apa kita fikir, apa tindakan kita. Ujian semua sementara. Ujian tetap akan berakhir. Takde yang kekal di dunia ini. Sepatutnya makin besar ujian, makin dekat kita dengan Allah. Bersyukur pada Allah atas apa saja yang berlaku. Kalau sebelum ini kita solat malam 2 rakaat, skrg solat 4 ke 8 rakaat. Kalau sebelum ni zikir sikit, perbanyakkan.... 

           Qada' Qadar - Ilmu Allah tidak memaksa kita membuat pilihan. 

          Sorry.. x boleh nak teruskan share dapatan drpd forum tadi.. skrg dh malam.. I continue writing about my feeling.. I always say to myself that aku mesti wajib bersyukur, reda, bersangka baik dgn Allah dan bersabar.... tapi I admit that it is very diffillcult. Mmg aku percaya perancangan Allah itu yang terbaik... tp aku stress dgn surrounding aku... kjp aku okay.. lps tu bnda yg trigger utk aku stress tu dtg balik.. I feel like i wanna go to a place that nobody knows me.. I wanna be alone.. dont wanna meet anybody,... i'm not strongggg... because we are human being yang memang lemah.. Allah sahaja yang berkuasa... how to continue live like this... I do hope that my HOPE is always with Allah.. 

 

chinggu (friends)

Assalamualaikum

      I wanna tell about my friends today... Saje je.. lama x jumpa kan.. At least ada kenangan kat sini.. So, I have few groups of ftiends.. Alhamdulillah ada juga yg sudi berkawan dgn saya. Kwn2  saya tak ramai pun.. Mungkin because I am a little bit introvert.. Introvert dgn org yg x rapat. If kwn rapat tu non stop bercakap...

      So the first group is my UIA friends. Dkt uia ni pun ada a few groups. Ada yg sama course, sebilik dari CFS, yg sekali join society, yg sama halaqah. Camtu laaa. So basically, I rapat with my friends yg sama econs and sama halaqah... Because we are always together maybe.. Alhamdulillah.. I missed that moments.. Everyday we meet. When we wanna register for new classes, we will adjust to be in the same class. X best la klas sorang2. Dh la bilik sorang2. That's why la I always go to their room. Kadang2 dkt Safiyyah, Kdg2 dkt Nusaibah.. smpai dlm group whatsapp adik2 junior aku bergaduh (bukan betul2) just confuse. One of them said I'm from Hafsah, one said from Nusaibah. Haha so funny laa. Pastu my friend sorang ni suka tanya I'm from which bilik? hehe... I don't mind to panjat the tangga to Nusaibah.. masa jaga Thaqif Aqil pun I jaga dekat bilik Fariha, jaga Noah juga... 

Now, I still be friended with them just cannot meet everyday like during UG la kan.. Yg dlm gmbr ni just yg sama course yg pernah jd roomate since asasi yg kwn since asasi. Yg lain ada gambar tp takes time sikit nk cari..

   Next is my SL1M friends. There are 20 of us including me who joined that program on 2018. Rapat because we meet everyday. We started rapat after we joined class. We have to joined class for one month. Balik kerja sama, makan sama, buka puasa sama, riadah sama, main basikal sama, and everything laa. I kwn dgn semua tp x la rapat dgn semua.. Rapat dgn most of them laa kann... they are very kind.. all the best for them..

     Next is kawan dkt rumah. Alhamdulillah I still have friends dkt area rumah ni. Kwn from secondary school.. Since I move to my family house, I always meet them and kawan dgn dorang.. hmm tp lps ni maybe susah sikit la nk jumpa. Skrg mmg PKP but yeah sorang demi sorang get married. Left me alone.

         Next is my alam maya friends... okay start with FB. I joined fb since 2010 when I was in form 4. For me fb is too open. I'm not so active updating anything just for business purpose maybe. Friends on fb tu ramai yg I think I x kenal pun .. Main approve je. Entahlaa rasanya maybe dulu kwn but now dh x kenal. something like that la. Tp dkt fb, aku friend with my teachers, lecturers, and seniors tooo.. For twitter, x ramai sgt follower. I purposely don't want people to know about my twitter. Quite private laa. I don't know la people read or not my tweet. I just write.. For Ig, quite the same with twitter. I only approved people that I know especially man. So all the man or boy are those that I know them.. X ramai pun. adik, kwn Sl1M, kwn2 lain. 

     Sampai sini saja ye .. Until we meet again. Inshaa Allah.. Pray for me..  bye

Me

Assalamualaikum,

   Okay today yeah actually since few  days ago I feel like wanna write because there so many things I wanna say but I just tell Allah. 

   It is about my part time job as a dropshipper. That job is really not ME. I never like a job which I need to promote things or anything related with marketing. Even my blog pun I never tell everybody to read, just share with some close friends. But I have toooooo. My current job is not that stable. I work in the tourism industry. With current condition, I can't do anything. My position pun not that important pun. Then.. I should prepare for something bad. I ave to have income to pay some monthly commitments. So what else I can do?? I don't have my own transport. So I can just find job that no need for me to move from one place to another. I think dropship is the only thing or work that I can do. However, I think I just wrongly join that company. Because in that company, they really push you and I really never like their culture. I just joined . Consider laaa.. lagipun dropship dia dah ramai. Pastu nk kena compete lagi. Susahla nk explain. Yg pasti this things made me cry everyday.. In this business, Dropship is level paling bawah, then you can naik jadi egent and so on. Masa first nak join jd dropship tu dia dh tnye kenapa nk join?? klau setakat nk tambah income buat kerja lain pun boleh tambah income. Klau nk join mesti cita2 tinggi . Klau org tnye kenapa join sbb nk jadi jutawan.. Ubah mindset... Tu semua kata2 diorang la yg aku x boleh hadam dlm hidup aku. Aku stress giler rasa hidup x bebas ... Wajib buat marketing everyday....  I just nk join dropship yg chill chill je .. xyah ar nk over sgt. Aku bukan la nk kutuk dorg .. I just wanna luahkan apa yg aku rasa.. 

    I mmg nk quit ar x lama lagi... Hopefully cepatla boleh dpt kerja baru.. Rasa serabut sgt hidup. Aku tahu Allah bg ujian mengikut kadar kemampuan kita. Kita kena sangka baik dgn Allah. Allah baik. Allah sayang kita.... okay bye

Ramadhan 1441 h

Assalamualaikum 

   As everyone aware, that we are celebrating Ramadhan in the MCO situation for this 2020. So it is something that we never had before. Never la I think sepanjang 26 years ni. It's okay we should be grateful. Everyone is being positive 

and be grateful. There must be hikmah for this. 

    Actually it is a bless for Muslims. I feel that. Allah really give us the time and opportunity untuk lebih dekat denganNya. I personally feel bless and grateful. This is the first time we ( the whole family)  praying jemaah. Feel like crying 😭. The last time we pray jemaah like this is during we stayed at quarters and I still in primary school. It was very long time ago. And now Allah give us the opportunity again... Baiknya Allah... kebetulan aku pun dh balik stay dgn family and adik aku pun dh balik duduk sini and adik yg dkt U pun balik b4 Pkp.  Nobody of us pun yg kahwin lg. 

( inshaaAllah one day Allah takdirkan utk kahwin then kahwin la and now just usaha gain the knowledge and never stop doa) So now everyone is here and we pray jemaah. I wanna keep this memory and the kenangan in this blog. Semoga dapat tingkatkan ibadah kita pd Ramadhan kali ni ya. ALHAMDULILLAH 

Movement Restrict Order (MCO)

Assalamualaikum..

      Its been a long time I'm not updating my blog. Actually I feel like to write this just to keep memories of this phenomenon in my blog. As we all know, the MCO started on 18/3/20. Everybody got shocked including me cause we never undergone this kind of situation. 

      There are so many things that people are worried about. Works, family, groceries and many more. So, on the 17th I went to work as usual because need to get the answer from boss. At last the management said that we need to clear our annual leave. Then , what can we do right. Just clear all of our leaves. We are just the employee right??... Then when PM announced that the MCO would be continued to the second phase. So, the hotel close until 30/4. For the time being laaa. because we don't know what will happened in the future. we have to take unpaid leave. So skrg ni the problem is for this second phase of MCO, one car only one person. You know that I don't have my own car. Everyday I will tumpang akak siti, or ayah, or my adik or just naik bas rapid. So how??? Bosss suruh dtg kerja tp aku x de own transport nk ikut rules tu. Japgi roadblock LAGI..... Faham tak??? stresssssss....................

        One more thing, i think i dh pernah tulis pasal dilema ni. You know my dream jobs available bnyk dkt area KL selangor. But still I don't have my own transport to go to work. Klau tmpt yg ada LRT ok lg. Yg dkt Sepang, Bangi,... masa dkt Putrajaya dulu pun dh seksa tau. Publicn transport situ teruk sgt.... Sedih laaa fikir... Aku sedih bila nmpk iklan kerja kosong kerja yg aku nak tp aku x boleh nk apply sbb dkt Kl or selangor............

oklah byeeee