Mar'18 - Mar'19

Assalamualaikum

       Hi everyone... Today I wanna write about my journey or my experience being a graduate trainee at PjH. Allah already a plan fro each of us right? Allah knows where with whom the best for us. Then we must always be grateful.

     Allah takdirkan for me to be there for one year. Even I never thought to be there for one year. I keep on searching new job during that one year. What to do is not my rezeki yet to get a job. So I finished my contract there. Its okay then I feel relieved. Actually it's not that easy for me to stay there. It was really challenging phase for me. Crying and me cannot be separated. However, Allah hadirkan my lovely friend that always be with me during that one year. Alhamdulillah. Enough k.

    For the first month i worked there, I just work went to office every day. There are 20 of us for that program. I was among the earlier within that 20 people. So we have to wait until 20 people then we would have our classroom training. The classroom training was held for 20 days. Best sangat. Everyday semangat nk gi training. So let see some pictures

First Day. Met new friends from other department.

   

Enough la tu ... then, we enter to the month of Ramadan. It was my first time to break fast with my friends merata rata tempat. Best sangat. Memang merapatkan hubungan silaturahim.

Most of my 19 friends nie call me 'D', or dee. Sukahatilah nk eja camne asalkan bunyi di. It was because of we have two asma. Cam x biasa.. dari kat stf lg camtu... hehe. Okay since they call me with that name so everyone that knew me from them will call me that as well. Then they asked what is your real name?... haha.. However, akak2 department call me asma, so when they heard me being called with that name dorg mcm pelik. Hmm dekat department aku tu mmg aku selalu la kne bahan. Ada je bnda.. redha je lahh..., I have department angkat or adopted haha.... Since I always go to credit leasing departmet, so I be friend la with them. Dorg baik. I always join them main beskal hehe. Best tau main beskal round putrajaya.

I always joined Mira and Pijo during the weekends since mira has her car. So I enjoyed having short vacay with them.

During Ramadan, we went to a CSR program organised by Corporate Com. We went to Olak Lempit. Break fast with adik2 that are so cute. We wanna make them happy.

Other than that, we ( 20 of us but not all pun) also joined other activities sepanjang dekat PjH. 

Health Talk.

Galactic Greenovators

Pesta Air Oxygenation

Mengecat tangga Alamanda.

District 21 program KSRPJH

 Okay lastly, we went to kayaking at presint 8 if i not mistaken, Pusat air something like that laa...

I forgot to introduce my department friends. We are in one section but different department. They are the one that I always went lunch with because we usually went lunch quite late. Thank you sangat all of you... banyak sangat tolong kite love all of you...

Okayyy thats alll byeeee ... Selamat memasuki bulan Ramadan. Semoga Ramadan kali nie lebih bermakna dan lebih baik  okayyy... Dalam doa2 kalian tu selitkan la nama saya ye... Kesian saya... Semoga dipermudahkan urusan aku untuk dapat kerja... X de idea nk buat apa skrg. I wanna manfaatkan umur yg Allah bg nie utk perkara yg boleh jd bekalan akhirat nnti. I have one more wish actually but cannot be written here laa segan .. harapnya doa makbul. Ameen

Freedom

Assalamualaikum

Alhamdulillah.... I never thought that I could stand  ( saya mampu bertahan ) here for 1 year. It was a really tough time for me. The stress that I felt sometimes made me down and I wanna be alone. However, I feel blessed to have my sl1m friends that always made me smiles and laugh. Even, sometimes ada la terasa hati sikit. haha biasala manusia... 

  Dulu masa Sara still kat pjh, aku tumpang dia. Tp sara mmg every day nk balik kol 6. Aku dkt department finance tu susah sikit nk kluar awal. Asyik kena marah je .Ye la syik lambat... Smpai gaduh x bercakap la .. nasib baik lps tu baik balik.. hehe . sara baik ,x berkira ,suka bake. Then after sara dh kluar, aku tumpang mira. Tp x selalu laaa sbb segan . Jauh mira nk hntr aku pastu balik rumah dia balik. Tp aku suka lepak makan dgn mira & pijo after office. Klau jmpe mira and pijo x gelak mmg x sah laaa.... 

Assma salsabila selalu teman aku. Aku pun dgn dia bnyk share kisah2 peribadi. Other than her, rapat juga dgn kawn2 finance. They are the one that I always lunch with. Ye la x boleh nk kluar lunch awal dgn kwn2 sl1m department lain. So kitorang lunch sesame kite je... Ada Atirah, nik, farah, Shikin, Wani, kak dayah, fizo juga kekadang. Wani selalu nk kenalkan aku dgn sepupu, dgn kawan dia... sama gak mcm pijo.. tp setakat ni xde apa2 yg serious lg. 

Sbb nmpak  mak mcm nk tgk aku kahwin.. haritu kak cik (my sis ) buat kecoh " mak .. kak kan.........." dia nk citer pasal phone aku batery berasap tu je tp kecoh dia tu mak aku ingat " haa kenapa dia nak kahwin, nk bawak jumpa marka dia ka? mana gmbr?? ... haa gittew excitednyee... Inshaa Allah one day... 

Okay laaa enough laa life must go on right??

These are some of the pictures tp gmbr farewell with akak2 department x upload pulak. Next time ea..

070119

                            Assalamualaikum. .

Alhmadulillah on 7th January 2019, I'm 25 already. Time move very fast.
  This year is my first year celebrate my birthday at office. I thought nobody remember my birthday. Then suddenly kak yani asked me is today (7/1) my birthday? Hmm then everyone pun knew about my birthday. . My sl1m friend knew sbb trcakap. . ter tau x, sengaja ...

I'm not expecting any birthday celebration. However on the next day tu 2 kali celebrate mkn cake... So sweet laaa... Thank you sgt. Thank you buat sy happy. To all who made wishes  and doa, thank you very much . Thank you sgt2... Semoga doa2 tu Allah makbulkan and doa2 tu kmbali to those yg mndoakan ...

Weekend ni pun not plan to go back home. However, Allah izin smpai rumah then celebrate dgn family pulak. Thank you my family members.

Jazakumullahu khairul jazak.. ayah mak adik2, kawan2 , akak2 office. 😘😘😘😘😘

Bye 2018

                     
                            Assalamualaikum.. .

  2018 will be leaving us in just few hours . So I wanna describe my 2018 life. 2018 was a very tough year because I already graduated . Life outside is not that easy and not that bahagia okay. . My lecturer was right. She said life in this university or undergraduate life is  a fantasy world. So , my 2018 is a sad year because I still couldn't get a permanent job. For a long time I try hard applying job. Pray. I don't know what else to do. Sometimes I felt down to see my friends all are having their permanent jobs. Even my team dkt pjh ni, ramai dh kena pnggil iv. Siapa x sedih .. I knew Allah has the best plan for me. I must put my trust in Him . Yeah.. I am human, kdg2 down juga ... Tahun yg full of tears laa kan. .. I just wanna make my parents happy . I wanna have my own car x yah nk susah2 kan org lg .Nk tumpang2. Hmmm lg satu ..ramai anak2 kwn mak ayah yg sebaya aku dh khwin . My parents pun mcm mak ayah org lain nk tgk anak dia kahwin .My mom said, this coming year I already 25 you should find someone ... semua tu Allah dh tntukan. When it is with whom. Only Allah knows . I put an effort to find my jodoh but still x jmpe kan. . .
         However 2018 still give me a smile. When I joined classroom training. I enjoyed the class. Allah gave me this 19 friends yg baik sgt . Mmg aku x rapat dgn semua.. Tp rapatla juga the 20 of us. Happy bila dpt buat gathering & ramai yg join. I love all of you. Kwn2 office yg aku selalu keluar lunch sama pun baik sgt sbb sudi kluar dgn budak sl1m yg mcm kuli ni. X sabar nk habis. Mmg aku akn rindu kwn2 sl1m yg always make me happy . Tp klau dh office yg penuh dgn suasana toxic tu sape je yg suka . That really ruined my 2018. FA pjh really ruined my day. My life. X semangat langsung nk gi office hari2.... Semoga Allah bg hidayah dkt kita, semua . . Hope for a better life in 2019.

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                                Assalamualaikum. .

Lama x update blog. I feel like I wanna write what I felt. 2018 is / was a very tough year for me . I never thought that I'm still here . Actually dh lama nk resign dari pjh ni. This place hurts me a lot. Tp nk buat camne punye la bnyk jawatan kosong dkt jonstreet,  indeed ke kat mne2 pun aku apply satu pun x nak panggil aku. ..sedih sgt.. Kdg2 depressed teruk juga. Especially bila sorang2. Bila dgn kwn aku pretend la like I'm okay nothing happened .

         Aku prnh baca yg tnda Allah sayangkan kita bila semalam kita sedih harini Allah bg kita happy. Tp mmg mnggu ni agak stress dgn org2 dkt office yg buat aku ni mcm kuli dorg. Aku mmg down sedih sgt . X sabar nk kluar dari situ. Tp bila ptg2 jmpe mira dgn pijo aku happy balik. They make me laugh. Ble jmpe salsabila pun aku mmg luahkan la apa yg trbuku di hati ni. Hopefully aku masih mmpu bertahan . Tp jumaat haritu aku x expect pun ada bnda gembira trjadi. Aku ingat nk balik naik bas je kol 6.30 camtu. X nak susahkan mira nk hntr aku jauh. Tp mira message aku pulak tnye balik ngan sape then aku pun x tau nk elak camne trjoin la dorg makan dkt cafe bwh. Ingat mira dgn pijo je tp ada akak abg office mira pijo juga dgn az pun ada .Trkejut juga. Tp akak2 ni sporting je mkn & borak dgn budak sl1m mcm kitorang ni. Semoga Allah murahkan rezeki akak2. Then, pijo nk gi ioi ambik phone dia dh siap repair. Pastu pijo ajak mira ,az and aku tgk wayang citer bumblebee. ..aku pun on la lgpun esokenye cuti. Then naik kereta mira and gi ioi. Dlm kereta berlakulah prbncangan mcm2. Aku ni bila dgm mira & pijo mmg akn ckp bahasa utara la . Tp ada az pulak. Hmm lntaklaa aku nk juga ckp bahasa aku. Penat ckp kl. Tp mmg best la kluar dgn korg.  Thank you for making me happy after i felt down. Thank you mira pijo az . Bumblebee so cute. Sesape nk ajak kluar bgitau laa ea hehe. Dh lama x jmpa shahira, Fariha, rahah . Hmm dh x nk jmpe kite ke?
     

Stress

                        Assalamualaikum
 So today I wanna tell everything what is inside my heart.

Entahlaa rasanya there's no more human sudi listen to my life story. Only Allah understand what I feel.

Last week was a very stress week for me. I really cannot stand to be there anymore.

Aku ni x bersykur ke?  Atau x sabar ?. .  Aku selalu ingat ustazustaz ebit liew ckp Allah bg musibah sbb Allah nk bg nikmat yg besar lps tu. ..

Tp aku x kuat sgt nk hadap org2 dkt office tu. Semua kerja aku x kena. Semua salah. Aku tau la aku bodoh. Budak sl1m ja. Treat aku mcm kuli. Aku cuba utk x nak benci dorg. Aku sakit sgt di treat camtu. Bkn treat mcm kuli je, treat mcm.. X tau nk explain. Kerja aku semua salah semua x kena. Dorg je yg betul. Pastu nk marah2 aku.

Tolong laa. Nk resign sgt. Hmmm. Siapa yg baca nk mntk tlg doakan saya please . Nk keluar drpd PJH secepatnya. Terlalu bnyk toksik.

Aku asyik x de selera mkn. Sbb stress sgt dgn dorg. Dgn kwn2 pun senyum fake je. Balik nangis.

Lg satu isu ni isu jodoh. Kwn2 sl1m ni selalu dok bncg pasal bnda ni .Entah laa nk buat camne belum jumpa lg .

Srikandi

 Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum,

      Alhamdulillah Allah give me the time and the feel to write right now. Actually, I wanna write about yesterday because I was so excited to meet my high school friends.... I think I've met few laa right especially those in uia gombak. However, Those I met yesterday were those who studied abroad. So, of course laa we did not see each other for a very long time. I felt shy juga laa. They studied oversea, I studied at Malaysia je..hehe. However, the awkwardness tu sekejap je. Then we became like dulu2. I feel that we are still the same. Seriously perangai sama je. Nothing change. Rindu nk lepak dkt dorm mlm2 bergosip. Yg paling x boleh blah si Mimi ni. Ya ampun bawang sgt... haha... So funny of you. Mimi nnti dh bertugas jd doktor, mesti patient happy je. Hehe... hopefully we can have a sleepover maybe one day... If i'm still here. They are still talking about rmc. haha cannot move on ea. I thought they already forgotten. Haha... I'm not bawang ing you girls okay... Just stating what I felt. Anyway congratulations to Izyan Syuhada for being top 10.

          Tajuk wajib when reunion of course selagi x kawin selagi tu topic nye akan pusing2 situ juga laaa... Alright. I thought i am the only one who sengsara at workplace. But actually no. Dayah and Hanis also telling me that they feel quite the same. Yea.. this is life right?.. Zera pun ckp the same. So the conclusion is we pray to Allah for giving us strength to keep strong. However, I'm still with my principle. I really wanna go out from pjh as soon as possible. Please pray for me to get job near to my house. I don't like here.... I knew I should feel very grateful and I must be yakin that Allah will always there for us. Allah giving the best for us. Allah knows the best for us. Allah sayang kita.

         Till we meet again inshaa Allah ... anyong...