Bye 2018

                     
                            Assalamualaikum.. .

  2018 will be leaving us in just few hours . So I wanna describe my 2018 life. 2018 was a very tough year because I already graduated . Life outside is not that easy and not that bahagia okay. . My lecturer was right. She said life in this university or undergraduate life is  a fantasy world. So , my 2018 is a sad year because I still couldn't get a permanent job. For a long time I try hard applying job. Pray. I don't know what else to do. Sometimes I felt down to see my friends all are having their permanent jobs. Even my team dkt pjh ni, ramai dh kena pnggil iv. Siapa x sedih .. I knew Allah has the best plan for me. I must put my trust in Him . Yeah.. I am human, kdg2 down juga ... Tahun yg full of tears laa kan. .. I just wanna make my parents happy . I wanna have my own car x yah nk susah2 kan org lg .Nk tumpang2. Hmmm lg satu ..ramai anak2 kwn mak ayah yg sebaya aku dh khwin . My parents pun mcm mak ayah org lain nk tgk anak dia kahwin .My mom said, this coming year I already 25 you should find someone ... semua tu Allah dh tntukan. When it is with whom. Only Allah knows . I put an effort to find my jodoh but still x jmpe kan. . .
         However 2018 still give me a smile. When I joined classroom training. I enjoyed the class. Allah gave me this 19 friends yg baik sgt . Mmg aku x rapat dgn semua.. Tp rapatla juga the 20 of us. Happy bila dpt buat gathering & ramai yg join. I love all of you. Kwn2 office yg aku selalu keluar lunch sama pun baik sgt sbb sudi kluar dgn budak sl1m yg mcm kuli ni. X sabar nk habis. Mmg aku akn rindu kwn2 sl1m yg always make me happy . Tp klau dh office yg penuh dgn suasana toxic tu sape je yg suka . That really ruined my 2018. FA pjh really ruined my day. My life. X semangat langsung nk gi office hari2.... Semoga Allah bg hidayah dkt kita, semua . . Hope for a better life in 2019.

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                                Assalamualaikum. .

Lama x update blog. I feel like I wanna write what I felt. 2018 is / was a very tough year for me . I never thought that I'm still here . Actually dh lama nk resign dari pjh ni. This place hurts me a lot. Tp nk buat camne punye la bnyk jawatan kosong dkt jonstreet,  indeed ke kat mne2 pun aku apply satu pun x nak panggil aku. ..sedih sgt.. Kdg2 depressed teruk juga. Especially bila sorang2. Bila dgn kwn aku pretend la like I'm okay nothing happened .

         Aku prnh baca yg tnda Allah sayangkan kita bila semalam kita sedih harini Allah bg kita happy. Tp mmg mnggu ni agak stress dgn org2 dkt office yg buat aku ni mcm kuli dorg. Aku mmg down sedih sgt . X sabar nk kluar dari situ. Tp bila ptg2 jmpe mira dgn pijo aku happy balik. They make me laugh. Ble jmpe salsabila pun aku mmg luahkan la apa yg trbuku di hati ni. Hopefully aku masih mmpu bertahan . Tp jumaat haritu aku x expect pun ada bnda gembira trjadi. Aku ingat nk balik naik bas je kol 6.30 camtu. X nak susahkan mira nk hntr aku jauh. Tp mira message aku pulak tnye balik ngan sape then aku pun x tau nk elak camne trjoin la dorg makan dkt cafe bwh. Ingat mira dgn pijo je tp ada akak abg office mira pijo juga dgn az pun ada .Trkejut juga. Tp akak2 ni sporting je mkn & borak dgn budak sl1m mcm kitorang ni. Semoga Allah murahkan rezeki akak2. Then, pijo nk gi ioi ambik phone dia dh siap repair. Pastu pijo ajak mira ,az and aku tgk wayang citer bumblebee. ..aku pun on la lgpun esokenye cuti. Then naik kereta mira and gi ioi. Dlm kereta berlakulah prbncangan mcm2. Aku ni bila dgm mira & pijo mmg akn ckp bahasa utara la . Tp ada az pulak. Hmm lntaklaa aku nk juga ckp bahasa aku. Penat ckp kl. Tp mmg best la kluar dgn korg.  Thank you for making me happy after i felt down. Thank you mira pijo az . Bumblebee so cute. Sesape nk ajak kluar bgitau laa ea hehe. Dh lama x jmpa shahira, Fariha, rahah . Hmm dh x nk jmpe kite ke?