Sunday, 4 February 2018

Keep calm and try to improve ourselves.




Assalamualaikum...


          I knew I should only write something that has ibrah. I should share something beneficial but I am a normal person. I am alone. I knew the best place to share problems or to say anything is during 3/4 of night. Tell to Allah. So, we must do that okay. On Friday, I listened to Ustaz Ebit Liew. He said that we must bersangka baik dengan Allah. Actually banyak sangat benda2 yg mententuh hati. You can find Usatz Ebit liew punya ceramah at youtube as well. 

          Before I forget, today, 4/2/18 is Fayyad's birthday. Fayyad is kak Farah's son. He is 1 year old today. He is so cuteeeee. Teringat dekat babies dkt uia. So, I should tell happy story only right. 

          Okay, life is complicated right. I feel like I am more comfortable in uia. What I mean is when in uia , I can go to halaqah easily. I can join program, meeting anytime. Nobody cares. But now, I have to jaga hati for both sides. They want me to join them. I am okay but at the other side, I have to explain everything to my parents. They don't understand. I cannot think of my future. Its okay .. Allah knows what is the best for me. Allah tu baik.

            During I went to uia b4 convocation, I had the chance to join sharing session before iftar. It was kak Amnani's turn. She always be called as Kak Ina. Kak Ina said, we must know the 'sirah' of Islam. The sahabat and sahabiah. So, when I arrived home, I found history book on Umar Abdul Aziz and Sultan Muhammad al Fateh. I really have to find more. We must increase our knowledge. Okay, actually I wanna share on Sultan Muhammad al Fateh. Before reading the book, I thought that Sultan Muhammad al Fateh just easily won the battle and got the Konstantinopel. However, it was not that easy. They took a long time in the battle. Many things happened and they almost putus asa. Sultan Muhammad al Fateh is a very pious man. The armies and citizen all are good and pious. Mereka sentiasa solat , mohon petunjik Allah dan akhirnya Allah bagi kemenangan untuk Sultan Muhammad Al Fateh. Jadinya, nak mendapat kejayaan tu bukan senang. Even, seorang sultan yang hebat pun Allah uji dengan bermacam dugaan sebelum nak menang. apatah lagi kita yang tak hebat nie lagi lah banyak dugaan. Allah bagi ujian tu sebab nak tingkatkan darjat kita. Sultan Muhammad al Fateh meletakkan 100% keyakinan dan kepercayaan kepada Allah. Kita pun kena buat macam tu. Kena yakin dengan Allah. Orang yang bersabar nie reward dia besar. tak disangka sangka. Actually, I wanna relate the story with my life but let me and Allah only know okayyy.... 


Jzakumullahu khairal jazak... 





Sunday, 21 January 2018

I am sorry



Assalamualaikum...


                    I really need to write right now. Now, my halaqah is with kak Farah Lokman. So, I never go to hq yet because i don't have transport. However, kak S stayed near to my house. So, I pm her stated that I wanna tumpang her to go to hq. Then she came just now but with her husband and her baby. So, of course I segan. Tapi suami kak S nie yg namanya abg S quite peramah. Aku bukannya nak kutuk tapi entahlaa. Suami kak S ajak saya apply jadi cikgu dkt ibrah sementara nak dapat kerja and jd keArah pnya ahli. Aku x kisah kalau ada transport. Tp aku x dak. Jauh juga laa nk ke sana. Tu laa tgh pening nie. Nnti tolak offer kata apa pulak. Mmg x baik cerita problem kat org. Tambah2 public camnie. Tapi aku stress. Aku suka jaa join program. Tp x dak transport. Lg satu program halaqah. Aku sebenarnya segan sgt dah nk tumpang kak S. Serious segan sgt. Tp aku perlu ke hq. Camna nie??? aku dh x nk tumpang... aaaaa stress.... maaf sgt. Aku tau aku x solehah. X patut citer problem kat sini. Aku cam nk stay KL lama2 sikit. 


                Okay lah nk citer bnda lain pulak. Td ada citer Kapt Mukhriz. Aku teringat time citer tu first kluar tv, kitorang tgk beramai2 dkt MO. Best sgt. Ada fariha, kak fad, kak ida. Time tu aku mmg suka sgt laa citer tu sbb kapten askar bagai nie. Aku suka sgt citer Dots tu Captain Yoo Si Jin and the gang. Dulu selalu melepak MO. Buka puasa sama2. rindu undergradsss. Nnti  ada citer budak boy. tp dkr rmc baru. x best laa x de kenangan. Kenangan semua dkt rmc lama. Tp bagus juga sbb aku mmg x nak ingat pun semua kenangan tu...  tu je yee utk kali nie. X de bnda menarik ... x dpt nk sebarkan dakwah. Maaf ye.


               

Wednesday, 17 January 2018

Alhamdulillah



Assalamualaikum..

     Alhamdulillah. Today I am really feel better. I just recover from my flu and fever. This is quite bad laa sepanjang hidup. Almost one week juga laa. I insist my brother to go to pharmacy to buy medicine for me. Mmg x boleh tidur  on the first day tu. Selalunya I got fever for only one day and not that bad. This time quite bad la. However, tetap kena bersyukur. Sakit tu kan penghapus dosa. Semua nya temporary kat dunia nie. Alhamdulillah skrg dh getting better cuma batuk nie belum fully recovered. Mungkin sbb haritu kan cuaca sejuk kan? tu yg temperature berubah. Cuaca sejuk ke panas ke semua tu asbab je. Allah dah memang mengtakdirkan aku untuk demam kan.. Semua berlaku dgn izin Allah. 

       Tadi rasa macam ada banyak benda nak tulis tapi sekarang dah tak ingat . Bila sakit nie baru lah kita appreciate nikmat sihat. Jagalah kesihatan masing2 yaaa. Put your trust in Allah. It is not just word of wisdom. Have to walk the talk. Boleh dengar ustaz Hanan Attaki dkt you tube. Best sangat. Actually I miss my solehah girls. Aku tak berani nak tegur sbb dorg tu busy. saya nie siapa laa kan ? Fariha skrg kwn dgn syuhada dan org2 kl je.. ye lah dh bekerjaya mana ingat saya lagi. hehe x de lah fariha baik, maafkan saya.... 

       on 7th January 2018, I already 24. Thank you. Jazakumullahu khair jazak kepada semua yang wish dan doakan saya.... lots of love. 

Tuesday, 2 January 2018

Rindu..



Assalamualaikum...


        I think there are so many times I used that title. Actually, just now Shahira said to me that she was at masjid. She missed me and other friends because we used to study together during final exam week. I was touched. I miss that moment too. I miss Shahira, Fariha, Syahadah, Ardeela, Rahah and Teha..... x pe nnti kat syurga kita study sama2 lagi. Semoga Allah permudahkan Shahira, Teha, Syahadah, Ardeela jawab exam ... ameeeen. Lots of love...


I think I still have things that I wanna write but I forgot.. its okay laa next time inshaa Allah. Ingat nk tweet pasal nie.. tp segan pulak nnti Nadhi cakap kak asma nie active twitter. Rindu sangat adik2 ittew nie.. Ada rezeki ada jodoh kita jumpa yaaa.

Sunday, 24 December 2017

Short notes...



                           
Assalamualaikum.... 

Okayy, rasa nk menulis sangat sbb x de org yg boleh aku share.. X tau la siapa yg baca blog nie.. Haritu aku baca blog Dr. Fl and she said that not all things we can share in this blog. If in your diary then its okay la because it must be private and confidential. Okay laa the title tu actually I wanna write at 3pm ++ camtu but x smpat so jd la draft. 

       Actually I wanna say congratulations to shiro yg selamat melahirkan anak sulungnya baby boy... I am happy for her. I am silent reader in GL group tu so just read laa kan..  Segan nk comment apa2.. First gl baby. Everybody is happy. 

       However, in the evening when I looked at gl's group again then everybody wish takziah. Then I read it is izzati farhani's baby. In another group aj shared that izzati loss her baby.. Allah saja yg tahu perasaan tu.. Aku trkejut baca. Sedih. Td baru happy with kelahiran baby shiro but now izzati kehilangan baby dia. Aku x nak citer lebih2 nie private.. Aku mmg nangis baca td. Walaupun aku x rapat sgt dgn gl, tp they were with me for 5 years. 

      Aku doa sangat supaya Allah hilangkan rasa sedih pd semua org. X best la tgk org sedih. Sedih tu sementara, Allah akn gnti dgn yg lebih baik. Semua kat dunia nie sementara. Aku pun tgh sedih juga.. Tgk kwn2 semua dh kerja. Aku rasa mcm aku dh x function. Aku pun selalu baca kata2 yg boleh bg semangat... Iman aku nie dh x tau dh macam mana keadaan. Rasanya lbh nipis drpd kulit bawang. 

Semoga Allah selamatkan Baitul Maqdis. 
Kena sentiasa cakna about this okay..  Siapa yg sudi doakan..  doakan lah saya dpt kerja. Jazakumullahu khairul jaza'. 

Friday, 8 December 2017

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                       Assalamualaikum...

Okay... It's time for me to luahkan everything in my heart. However, before that as Muslims let us pray for Palestine. Baitulmaqdis will never be city of israel.. We musy everyday every second be with them. Muslims must unite.


     Sometimes I am okay but sometimes not. Its hard for me to maintain the positivity... Lagipun life skrg is different. Very sad to live alone. No more friends like during undergraduate... Sedih la x de kwn. Hmm... Entahla susah betul nk dpt kerja skrg kan?..  I know we must always be grateful for what Allah give to us.. Put your trust in Allah.. sedih juga x dpt nk join halaqah.. X tau dh nk ckp mcm mna.. Aku perlu sgt hq... Nk pi program pun jauh aku x dak transport... Lgipun org bkn knl aku.. Mesti akward sorang2...

      Hidup mesti diteruskan. Jangan lupakan saudara kita di Palestin, Syria,  dan  di mana2 saja
Rindu sahibah 😘😘😘😘😘♥

Monday, 13 November 2017

Convo 17





Assalamualaikum

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,

         Ahamdulillah officially graduated on 12th November 2017. My uncle's birthday. Happy birthday and thank you so much for the present and everything... Obviously the most appreciation I would give to my parents... but before that, thanks to Allah.. Allah placed me at IIUM. I never thought pun where to further my degree. Then, fill in the UPU and I got the first choice for Kulliyyah of Economics and Management Science IIUM Gombak... I went to foundation studies first CFS, then continue with degree there. Alhamdulillah... A lot of experience and challenges I faced. Tears and laugh. Alhamdulillah. Thank you sangat to my parents who always support me. Without them I will not graduated.. Aduyaiii sensitif laa bila sebut bnda2 camnie.. mmg nk nangis.. semalam pun jatuh juga air mata nie masa dalam hall... 

         Thank you again for  my parents for always be with me , give money, remind me, give solutions, advices and more that I could't describe. Mmg semua tu drpd Allah tp melalui mereka. Family is a very precious nikmat from Allah.. happy to see my friends with their family.
Actually bnyk bergambar dgn kawan ... alhamdulillah sempat juga brgambar with my family.. rasa bersalah sgt... cedih laa 

     Then, thank you also to my beloved lecturers. Helping me a lots. Terharu sgt lecturer kenal ittew. Because I was not a popular student I mean speak a lot like that..kan? entahla camne sir boleh kenal... Unexpected. Tp lecturer lelaki pulak tu.. Sir Fawwaz was my Investment Analysis subject and my SV.. Then, Sir Azhar, my Futures Options lecturer. Terkejut tetibe sir panggil nama saya pastu komen .. susah nk describe suasana itu  hehe. Semua lecturer and guru saya ... thank you very much .. 

      My friends... Masa keluar hall tu Zuhairah panggil.. tu kwn2 stf kau.. nmpk AJ and Shaqila... terharu dorg bg bunga... thank you.. stfian then of course laa my beloved kwn uia. without them, I alone laa kat uia nie.. Thank you teha, shahira, ardeela... for the bouquet of flower .. buat sendiri kot... Then, Syahadah, Sakinah and Sapinah... thank you very much... untuk my sister pun yg turun dari Kuantan. thank you for the flower.......... Thank you everyone..   Semoga Allah merahmati kehidupan dunia akhirat for my family, lecturers and friends..... ameeeen....hmmm x tau dah nk ckp apa .. My kawan2 so sweet and concern. i wrote cedih at my status then everyone asked why?? konvo tu happy + sedih ... okayyy


Awal2 pagi dah jumpa .. teha ada class ACCA

With AJ and Shaqila thank you sudi bg bunga kat kite...
last dapat masa form five dkt RMC 


With Sarah, sempat juga jmpa hehe


With beloved sahibah.. nie sahibah solehah and wanted kot.. Sakinah nk kahwin dah
Sapinah pun, Syahadah apatah lagi. Rahah nk start SL1M dah.. Fariha dh kerja dkt media prima .




Kesayangans


Gambar with family belum dpt. Gambar dgn FSCC pun belum ada okay byeee doakan utk saya juga yee