Life is a test

Assalamualaikum

alhamdulillah Allah masih bagi peluang untuk buka blog.. rasa macam nk tulis blog sbb stress. ujian datang tanpa henti .. x pa.. bersyukur dgn uijan Allah.. the latest one is Donal Trump won the election... Ya Allah.. takut nk fikir pasal masa depan.. X pa Allah Maha Berkuasa.. Maha Hebat.. Allah knows the best...

              Selain daripada tu nk ckp yg sem nie ujian yg Allah bagi sgt lain.. it's something that I've never experience before.. new way of test.. but i know and yakin for what Allah give to us has something that Allah want us to learn. okayy just now i've read k. nahsrah's fb.. yea its true.. what she said choice is yours nak pilih jln yg Allah suka atau nafsu... Semestinya Allah is priority... Tapi aku nie insan yg lemah.. mungkin k. nash mmg dtg dari family yg soleh, sekolah pun elok.. kwn2 lelaki dan perempuan yg berasal dari org soleh.. tp saya x.. org2 sekeliling saya dari sekolah rendah , sekolah menengah bukan semua dari family soleh.. and you know.. when i 've get chance to know  them and to know their life .. it make me sad.. klau Allah x tempatkan saya dkt uia nie.. kenal manusia2 baik di keliling saya skrg .. saya x rasa saya mcm skrg.. saya x faham islam yg sebenar... rasa bersykur sbb Allah pilih saya utk dpt kefahaman itu.. bukan laa saya nie solehah sgt.. saya cuma nak kwn2 yg kt luar dpt bnda yg sama ... tapi saya x mmpu nk sampaikan.. hanya mampu utk berdoa... x tau camne nk ckp kat dia yg bnda yg dia buat nie salah.. takut Allah marah.... sbb x gitau dia.. sedih sbb rasa diri nie asyik nk bg alasan... mungkin  kita takut kwn terasa hati or what not tp ...kita patutnya utamakan Allah.. aku x tau nk ckp camna tp aku rasa berdosa ... setiap kali communicate dgn ... aku akn menangis.. x tau kenapa gitau kt sini..mungkin x da org yg baca so its good.. aku yakin semua org boleh berubah.. dlm cerita HLOVATE semua berubah drpd x faham islam smpai jd soleh .. hidayah itu milik Allah.. Allah yg pegang hati hati kita...rasa hidup miserable.. sbb aku yg create miserable tu.. ingat dia dh lupa aku.. so senang laa no communication anymore so i can prevent myself and himself from doing sins but.. its complicated.. Yaa Allah please help me..............tp kan bila Allah bg masalah mcm nie .. satu yg aku nmpak i will cry and start to talk to Allah .. mungkin dh lama aku x cerita dgn Allah ... Allah rindu..  

Hmmmm

Assalamualaikum....

        This may be the last post or entahlaa I'll may not active in writing blog anymore... I want to get myself busy... no time to think about things that should not be thought of....

         Sometimes I feel this life is unfair... But this life memang kejam pun kan?? ujian non stop... rasa x mampu sgt nk hadapi... satu x settle satu lg dtg... macamtu laaa hidup kan ??? selalu juga baca kata2 positif  but entahlaaa...  tadi dah tanya ustazah.. ustazah kata hidup ni 80% irodah Allah 20% usaha... x pe lah ... teruskan berdoa walaupun 20% jee.. tp doa tu senjata org mukmin... lagipun bro Azman cakap Allah Maha Kaya ... Allah akn bg kebih drpd yg kita minta... 

        Hidup ni stresssssss sgt semua nk buat hal.............. x mampu nk bersabar... tolonglaa doakan saya ni kuat... I;m not that strong to face all this... 

The last short sem in UIA sob sob..

Assalamualaikum....

    Last 13/8/16, my friend's birthday that i always remember.. happy birthdayy Fizrie.. Allah has a better plan for you .. you can still be airforce  in paradise later tau.. jgn cdih... my friend, third in batch Grandiloquent 0711, Syafiqah Elida already get married... I'm happy for her.. #srikandigoingstrong. barakallahulakuma wabarakah Elle and partner.

          At the same date, there is something happen...sob sob.. cannot tell laa privacy. Cryingggg story.... okayy,,,

         What else ea... now.. with Fariha, kak Khadijah and kak Jalilah... long time no see.... non stop discussion....

            Just see pictures laaa 

Finish Exam... alhamdulillah..

Before going out .... 

        This short sem, so interesting... full of suka duka.. I didn't expect la I'll share my story with Fariha and Rahah... no more secrets about me.. hhee.. yg salah sama2 kita betulkan... thank you for being with me so that I'll improve myself to become more solehah... .. lastly, I pray so that Allah give us the true understanding of Islam and practice Islam perfectly.... Subhanallah, alhamdulillah Allahu akbar....

Luahan Hatiku...

Assalamualaikum...

Allah SWT already arranged everything in our life nicely. Everything that Allah gave, giving, and will give are everything the best. It might be sad, happy or anything...

        Yeah.. I knew, I am not solehah like others.. I also knew that we cannot say bad about ourselves... but 

        However, I feel very greatful because Allah grant me this opportunity to be in a good surrounding, surrounded by good people. accept me as I am.. Always tegur me if I'm wrong. Listen to my problems... Thank you so much... If i'm not here I don't know what will happen to me.. well you know.. 5 years in all girls school,... when go out of course culture shock.. ...Alhamdulillah Allah placed me here to learnt what is ikhtilat.. learn about aqidah, akhlak and everything... 

       My lecturer said, life in university is still in a fantasy not a real world...  You don't know what  and how the real world outside... it made me sad to know about my friend outside, they didn't get what i've got... then... I pray people outside will get the chance to learn Islam in more detail....

   

This life is very challenges right???... I hope we will always with Allah... Bro Azman said, kena rasa Allah bersama kita... To find tranquility, remember Allah. Banyakkan zikir... lupakan perkara2 yg x elok. stop doing things that Allah hate. Semoga Allah ampunkan dosa dosa kita... ameeeeeen

Learn something meaningful

                                                 

Assalamualaikum.....

Feel like to write something... hmmm.. how?? problem not settle... problem will always continuous right? Its a bless as long as it remind us to Allah... Actually just now, I've read at a blog about friend between different genders... its true.. just wanna share.. What the blog says are better to be friend with same gender because with different gender, we have to behave... sometimes we used to that particular style or activities which you know... not suitable with different genders... dont understand right??? okayy like this laa.. for girls, they cannot use the manja voice to speak with guys.. but sometimes we used to it.. because with girls we always be like that... so, we sometimes didn't realize we tanpa sengaja terckp camtu .. you know?? hard laa to explain.. especially when the guys are in sad or what.. girls tend to feel kesian.. and want to pujuk... ohh its dangerous... even in media social.. you know??? Ustaz said the emoticon also give hidden meaning... 

what do you expect??? I am angry at myself...

Emoticon like 2 of them.. what does it means??? its about heart... very dangerous.. okayyy... so let us move towards a more solehah girls.. you can do it

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One more thing.. do assignment late and come to class late because of finishing that assignment and you are girls??.. Baru ada Life... heheheee.. perghhh terbaik laaa sister...undergrad life,... jgn la poyo sgt.. sekali sekala buat kerja camtu baru da LIFE... HEHE.... hehe... maaf ye.. if my words are not so suitable.... love all of you...

Bogoshippo

Ashtaqtulakum...

^_^

till we meet again inshaa Allah........... pray for me...

LOVE...

Assalamualaikum....

        Loving can hurt sometimes??? We don't talk anymore??....

Hehe... Alhamdulillah thumma alhamdulillah... again Allah give me and my friends a SMILE.... its a bless.. a big rahmat.. in english we can call it boon... Allah give a chance to see His beautiful creations.. Mashaaa Allah... So nice... 

           Alhamdulillah  Allah izin.... we arrived at Nani's house at Malacca.. near the beach.. so many beaches... 

           Thank you Fariha and Asma Noor.. for driving us... again.. I'm not giving any help... very sorry.. if I can drive.. I'll of course help ... At last the busy weekend come to an end... next weekend... no raya anymore... Alhamdulillah a very meaningful raya... Other than that, for those whose got married... barakallahu lakuma... tkc first in batch... and on this 13/8/.. Elle also will getting married.. barakallulakuma... congratzzz.. I thought this year nobody fom GL is getting married.... 

             For those who still feel down, sad or anything... I pray that Allah will heal your sadness. I knew besides the sadness Allah grant something precious to you... Be strong.. it is reminder for me also... Semoga Allah beri kita kekuatan... ameeeeeeeen.

I also hope I can slowly buang all the karat jahiliyyah inside me and only do what Allah asked... semoga kehidupan kita diberkati...

I just teringat.. about Gontor nasyid's lyrics... it says 

      Di sisni paksalah diri bahagia,

      Hingga ikhlas terima kenyataan.

hmmm what do you think?

Bye... till we meet again.. 

Feel Blessed

assalamualaikum...

So Cute...

sister with gold tudung tuuu.. bahagia nmpaknyee... pretending or what?

We don't talk anymore... like we used to do...

I just read IIUM Confession... a story about how to improve your english...

Good... it is important to be good in english and we can be khairunnas 'anfa uhum linnas... When we have many skills we can be like that laa kan...

                      I would like to share about patience. It has three types. First, patience with all Allah's command, second patience with not doing what Allah prohibit and lastly patience with the the test that Allah give to us.

                      Sometimes, crying can heal our stress or sadness. Only Allah knows what inside our heart and Allah knows the best for us. Keep telling everything to Allah. We will feel blessed and lega... It needs patience to do that. To accept something to stop doing sins ... its hard but Allah always comes first. when it hard, remember Allah .. ..

                     Maybe until here only.. okay... want to finish english term paper... still a lot ahve to be improved and to be done... till we meet again...

2nd raya

                                       Assalamualaikum...


                So Alhamdulillah thumma Alhamdulillah finished my 6 Syawal fast.. So, tomorrow I'll be celebrating raya... hehe..

                 Okayy I have some chit chatting with my beloved ustazah just now, I asked what should I do if my friend is sad? Usatazah said give kata2 semangat, care dgn apa yg dilalui, fahami bantu jika perlu... Maybe one more doakan dia .. it is good right to doa to people.. especially to your family members and friends... I pray that Allah give us strength to continue with our life.

Sometimes I wonder... how my friends could stay with me?.. You are so strong.. sometimes I have bad mood laaa... sulking... everything... I feel bless to have all of you in my life. After this undergraduate.... I'll be missing you guys A LOT.... okay we keep praying for each other. For my family ... thank you very much. Love you.. I am sorry to all my family friends if I have hurt you without realizing it or realizing it... to Syahadah also.. Sorry and thank you... Thank you Allah ... Alhamdulillah.

I love you... bogoshipto...
is today friendship day or what?...
Love Allah first, Love Rasulullah, then family and friends...
Pray for me... I want to become a good person
Think only what is important... no need to berangan too much...okayyy
Focus ibadah.. . a small reminder for myself. .. for one of my friend.. don't laa be like that,.. Put your trust in Allah. Allah knows the best.. Allah love you.

Bahagia dalam sedih

Assalamualaikum....

             My title today is like tajuk lagu melayu right? hehe... kalah dalam menang, hidup dalam mati, doa dalam lagu.... hehe.

The best selfie for today.. quite satisfied even my tudung is quite bulat.. stfian tudung must sharp.. hehe..

                 So, yeah actually i'm stressed doing my assignment. Just realised that 26/7 is Tuesday.. Afiq's birtdayyy my brother... still the same like last time, end up with writing blog..

            Today is 24/7... last 5 years where were I?... of course at RMC... ish2 sister nie dah kenapa ingat ... I think I am the only one who remember and I hope nobody will read this... Maluuuuu.

No laaaa. like this, today... Fariha and me went to Bangi, and we go through the road that reminisced me of my school's dayyy ... tha'ts all   +   yesterdayyy meet with srikandi... hehe srikandi sangat.. budget laa sister nie. They are srikandi not meeee..................

               So, what I want to write is...in the stress day with tough test... Allah still give me a chance to smile... It was NICE... Masha Allah ... Alhamdulillah sangat.... 

             What else I wanna write ea??? haa really miss Tropical fruit company... Only meet Intan and Emylia... I miss to see Wafiqah.. Cannot find her ... Rindu .., Amirul, Hanis.. 

 Bella and Intan call me Diya, Hanis and dayah call me Kiah.. so funny.. Rozie panggil apa ntah... but mostly call asmadiyana.... hehe...

      I want to dedicate the song see you again. 

For Fariha... thanks a lot ... Sorry for not helping you ... lets us finish our english term paper... FIGHTING!!!!!!... see you next time.. for GL gathering cannot go laaa Bella said no point laa if go no you guys.. feel awkward ... X pe we pray so that Allah will gather us one dayyy.

sedih

           

                          Right now I'm doing my assignment, but cannot focus. I feel very guilty. I 'll write everything here and hopefully nobody will read. Of course everyone want to be treated well. Yeah, me too but sometimes I have problem. If I'm angry, I will show it with my action. if i'm sulking then it means i'm angry or I'm not treated people nicely. I dont wanna be like that. I feel like I wanna meet counselor. Its hard to control that feeling. I keeep crying. Only Allah know how I feel.

                          maybe i'm not a good friend. I like to have guest coming to my room, to stay for one or two days . its okayy. even I'm a little bit not comfortable and quite shy because people know what i'm doing but its okay. I can accept that for one to two days. This time, my friend wanna stay at my room for one semester. As I said I like privacy. I'm not comfortable people share compartment with me. I lost my freedom. I'm not good as others. I never bother about the payment. Its about my life. Its hard for me. But, one of my behavior is easy to get kesian and diffilcult to menolak when people ask for something. When she asked to stay... I felt x sampai hati.. then just accept her to stay in my compartment. I'm trying to be good. Everyday have to acting and pretending that I'm okayy. with a smile face. yeah I'm keep run away from staying at my room just to avoid hurting her. I know its hurt. But who is wrong in this situation? I'm not treating her well and I knew its hurt. I don't wanna be treated bad as well. I'm afraid what you give you get back. I'm afraid if one day i'll be treated like that................ I'm really stressssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

                       I hope my friends around me don't angry at me and treated me well.

                      Now i feel bad, please pray for me. I m afraid of doing sins. If i'm wrong please forgive me. Yeah again I'm not a good friend like others, but I have my kelemahan also. I feel guilty towards Syahadah and towards you a little bit. i'm dreaming of you just now... I hope I can talk to syahadah nicely after this. She is secretive. I'm still thinking why she dont wanna register for room. The reasons I cannot accept. if wanna pray jamaah just come to my room or go to masjid. If feel alone sorang2 kat bilik then come to my room once a while. Like I go to Fariha's room once a while if i'm talking for two days. I hope I dont make people in trouble because I LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLLLLLLL.

Raya 2016

        Assalamualaikum....

Today is 12th July equal to 7th Syawal 1437.... Alhamdulillah dapat sambut raya tahun nie. Allah masih panjangkan umur. Tahun nie especially, hujung2 Ramadan ramai yg pergi bertemu Ilahi. Rasa macam x elok nk sambut raya lebih2... walau happy macam mana pun ingatlah Allah . I wanna remind myself actually. 

            Alhamdulillah, this year, Allah izinkan kami satu keluarga sederhana besar i mean my father's family untuk gather bersama sama. I love that suasana yg sgt susah utk dijumpai. This year everybody came back to Penang hometown . So, it quite meriah... Alhamdulillah. Even I am already 22 but still got duit raya. Semoga Allah murahkan rezeki mereka yg sudi bg duit raya for me. I felt my uncles still treated me as children. My lecturer also said that even you already big and have your own family, you are always your parents' babies...  I just thinking of how it will be when i already married. I cannot imagine seriously.... . its okayy lah no need to think of that.

          What else, I feel happy to meet all my cousins and pakcik makcik.. having chit chat... Alhamdulillah...  okay change topic to real life .. I was extremely into DOTS... everyday I will sebut captain Yoo si Jin and Surgeon major Seo dae Yong. I dont know to spell sarjan in english its like pakar bedah. ... Before this laa i dont know why? .. but now not anymore the feel of enthusiasm or enthusiastic all are gone... suka sikit2 je... hehe dah laaa. doakan saya ye...

                                               The Cousins.... love you alll

Third year First sem

                          Assalamualaikum....

Alhamdulillah... Allah give us chance to live until now.. and today is 8 Ramadhan.

Usually after finish of every sem i'll update blog but this semester, I would like to upload video that I've made myself... actually I'm in the process of learning how to make video. i wanna use adobe primiere pro but forgot how to use... I have to learn... recall back... Pray for me so that what i've learnt I can contribute to ummah to Islam... ameen

But the pro show is .... 

I'll update first, then I'll use another apps laaa x best ahhh pro show nie... ingt line oren tu akn hilang bila publish tp x pun... sob sob

2015

Assalamualaikum...

             I would like to share 2015 story.. even today dah 3oth january.. dah almost one month in 2016. 2015 was so awesome. It teach me A LOT... cannot describe. Best dapat join Team DnT EMSS and Journalism club. ... even both are quite contrast. I've learnt a lot. Bak kata Ain, every person in that team taught me "something". .. Sometimes kena bully but sometimes I bullied people also... Bully main main je. Tapi mostly I laaa kena bully. Gembira, menangis tu biasa laaa.... Alhamdulillah everything run smoothly. Best dapat gi Langkawi, Terengganu, agd ,agm with all of you was a great memory.

              Other than that, I've met e few people that surprising me.......... I mean yeah... I never thought to meet them. First is Fizrie, my friend at RMC in 2011... during STF - RMC had a programme. .. I met him coincidentally at STABAZ ... hehe ...  Then, I also met kak Alina.. my beloved kakak. Last time we met I think also in form 5... Its been 4 years. Ingat Kak Alina x datang sbb x register online pun... rupanya datang juga program JC tu... Thanks kakak for supporting Journalism carnival 2015.....

            2015 also taught me to take care of a baby. Sangat x sangka yang aku akan jaga Thaqif aqil for almost 1 sem... Jaga dia dekat bilik Fariha, bawak gi meeting and many more with Thaqif. Miss him a lot. Fariha ajar aku jaga Thaqif .. and after tu mmg aku jaga fully hehe.. ambik dekat ayah dia... especially bila dekat mahallah ... kalau hari Jumaat, mmg akan jaga dekat bilik fariha... aku baru relax2 dekat bilik tiba2 Fariha call datang Nusaibah ... Thaqif datang... aku pun kelam kabut siap panjat tangga Nusaibah ... ambik Thaqif drpd ayah dia... anything for you laaa Thaqif .

             There are a lot more stories that happened on 2015 but until here I can tell okay... byeee

^_^ dah 0kay

Assalamualaikum....

              Alhamdulillah post semalam baru didelete oleh aku sendiri beberapa saat yg lalu... dah boleh move on dah rasanye nie... Alhamdulillah... terima kasih buat yang mendoakan....

              Therefore, I would like to share a little bit of motivation or knowledge from a book title "Pimpin Aku ke Syurga" by Afdholul Rahman, but not now laaa let it be draft for a while then I''ll come back inshaa Allah. ...

               I come back .. alhamdulillah.. but I don't bring that book .. therefore I would like to share about my naqibah's writing. She is very daebak.. always with #sistabah... I really like this post, therefore, I would like to write back here.


                  Nabihah's writing:

Honestly speaking, semua orang akan rasa rendah diri dan tak layak untuk buat amar ma'aruf nahi mungkar bila kita terfikirkan dosa dan maksiat kita dengan Tuhan. Isk isk.... Tapi bila teringatkan hidup ni all is about learning, gagahkan juga diri untuk berdiri sama tinggi dengan sahabat sahabat yang lain walaupun dalam nak menggagahkan diri tu sentiasa menghatui diri adalah dosa - dosa.

Bersyukurlah Rabb kita masih mencampakkan rasa malu dan gerun dengan dosa - dosa sendiri. What if that feeling has gone? Mesti sampai bila - bila kita akan seronok berterusan bermaksiat dengan Tuhan. Kan??

Sampai bila nak terus hanyut melayan rasa hati "rendah diri", "tak layak", " tak soleh", " tak bagus", "tak matang" semua ni? Sedangkan musuh Allah tak pernah berhenti mengatur strategi , kita masih ralit melayan emosi. Dahlah.. .. Selagi mana Rabb masih memilih kamu, ketahuilah Dia lebih mengetahui akan dirimu. Duhai hati, jangan pernah underestimate Allah! Allah lebih mengenali dan mengetahui diri kamu selama - lamanya lebih daripada kamu tahu.

Dunia ini, kehidupan ini, kalau sentiasa qawiyy tak terbenam langsung, tu bukan kehidupan di atas planet Bumi. Mungkin tu cuma kehidupan makhluk di planet marikh. Kalau tak pernah merasa sukarnya melawan nafsu dan sukarnya meninggalkan dosa- dosa yang menjadi tabiat kehidupan , kita takkan mampu jadi manusia yang kuat.

 Kerana kita akan bertambah kuat, apabila melawan arus. Orang yang hidup under pressure akan lebih strong daripada kehidupan yang tidak pernah dihentam ombak. Tersenyumlah dengan kesukaran diri dalam mendidik sekeping hati, kerna yakinlah suatu hari nanti, Rabb akan menjadikan kita hambaNya yang Rabbani.

 Sebab, Allah sentiasa tahu apa hajat di hati kita. Kita nak jadi apa mahupun hati kita benci dosa yang mana. Teruskan usaha, kerana kehidupan ini diciptakan Tuhan dengan penuh harapan.


.... semoga dapat manfaat. ^_^



                             

ANA SAYANG ANTUM SEMUA TAU...................

yg lain yg x de dalam gambar pun ... terima kasih kerana menjadi part of my life