End of 2020

 

                                                                     Assalamualaikum

           Saya sedih... Sebenarnya sekarang tengah dengar forum daripada kak Najwa dan kak Ha. Kak Najwa ckp kita tak boleh simpan. Kena luahkan.. I feel like it is better for me to express it here. Maybe laaa... Sebelum tu, kak ha share cerita mengenai Saidatina Maryam. Kisah hidup Maryam penuh dgn ujian. Berat sgt ujiannya. Seakan akan nak depression. Tapi Allah datang memujuk Maryam. 

            Kak ha cakap .. Apa yg kita cakap mempengaruhi apa kita fikir, apa tindakan kita. Ujian semua sementara. Ujian tetap akan berakhir. Takde yang kekal di dunia ini. Sepatutnya makin besar ujian, makin dekat kita dengan Allah. Bersyukur pada Allah atas apa saja yang berlaku. Kalau sebelum ini kita solat malam 2 rakaat, skrg solat 4 ke 8 rakaat. Kalau sebelum ni zikir sikit, perbanyakkan.... 

           Qada' Qadar - Ilmu Allah tidak memaksa kita membuat pilihan. 

          Sorry.. x boleh nak teruskan share dapatan drpd forum tadi.. skrg dh malam.. I continue writing about my feeling.. I always say to myself that aku mesti wajib bersyukur, reda, bersangka baik dgn Allah dan bersabar.... tapi I admit that it is very diffillcult. Mmg aku percaya perancangan Allah itu yang terbaik... tp aku stress dgn surrounding aku... kjp aku okay.. lps tu bnda yg trigger utk aku stress tu dtg balik.. I feel like i wanna go to a place that nobody knows me.. I wanna be alone.. dont wanna meet anybody,... i'm not strongggg... because we are human being yang memang lemah.. Allah sahaja yang berkuasa... how to continue live like this... I do hope that my HOPE is always with Allah.. 

 

chinggu (friends)

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      I wanna tell about my friends today... Saje je.. lama x jumpa kan.. At least ada kenangan kat sini.. So, I have few groups of ftiends.. Alhamdulillah ada juga yg sudi berkawan dgn saya. Kwn2  saya tak ramai pun.. Mungkin because I am a little bit introvert.. Introvert dgn org yg x rapat. If kwn rapat tu non stop bercakap...

      So the first group is my UIA friends. Dkt uia ni pun ada a few groups. Ada yg sama course, sebilik dari CFS, yg sekali join society, yg sama halaqah. Camtu laaa. So basically, I rapat with my friends yg sama econs and sama halaqah... Because we are always together maybe.. Alhamdulillah.. I missed that moments.. Everyday we meet. When we wanna register for new classes, we will adjust to be in the same class. X best la klas sorang2. Dh la bilik sorang2. That's why la I always go to their room. Kadang2 dkt Safiyyah, Kdg2 dkt Nusaibah.. smpai dlm group whatsapp adik2 junior aku bergaduh (bukan betul2) just confuse. One of them said I'm from Hafsah, one said from Nusaibah. Haha so funny laa. Pastu my friend sorang ni suka tanya I'm from which bilik? hehe... I don't mind to panjat the tangga to Nusaibah.. masa jaga Thaqif Aqil pun I jaga dekat bilik Fariha, jaga Noah juga... 

Now, I still be friended with them just cannot meet everyday like during UG la kan.. Yg dlm gmbr ni just yg sama course yg pernah jd roomate since asasi yg kwn since asasi. Yg lain ada gambar tp takes time sikit nk cari..

   Next is my SL1M friends. There are 20 of us including me who joined that program on 2018. Rapat because we meet everyday. We started rapat after we joined class. We have to joined class for one month. Balik kerja sama, makan sama, buka puasa sama, riadah sama, main basikal sama, and everything laa. I kwn dgn semua tp x la rapat dgn semua.. Rapat dgn most of them laa kann... they are very kind.. all the best for them..

     Next is kawan dkt rumah. Alhamdulillah I still have friends dkt area rumah ni. Kwn from secondary school.. Since I move to my family house, I always meet them and kawan dgn dorang.. hmm tp lps ni maybe susah sikit la nk jumpa. Skrg mmg PKP but yeah sorang demi sorang get married. Left me alone.

         Next is my alam maya friends... okay start with FB. I joined fb since 2010 when I was in form 4. For me fb is too open. I'm not so active updating anything just for business purpose maybe. Friends on fb tu ramai yg I think I x kenal pun .. Main approve je. Entahlaa rasanya maybe dulu kwn but now dh x kenal. something like that la. Tp dkt fb, aku friend with my teachers, lecturers, and seniors tooo.. For twitter, x ramai sgt follower. I purposely don't want people to know about my twitter. Quite private laa. I don't know la people read or not my tweet. I just write.. For Ig, quite the same with twitter. I only approved people that I know especially man. So all the man or boy are those that I know them.. X ramai pun. adik, kwn Sl1M, kwn2 lain. 

     Sampai sini saja ye .. Until we meet again. Inshaa Allah.. Pray for me..  bye

Me

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   Okay today yeah actually since few  days ago I feel like wanna write because there so many things I wanna say but I just tell Allah. 

   It is about my part time job as a dropshipper. That job is really not ME. I never like a job which I need to promote things or anything related with marketing. Even my blog pun I never tell everybody to read, just share with some close friends. But I have toooooo. My current job is not that stable. I work in the tourism industry. With current condition, I can't do anything. My position pun not that important pun. Then.. I should prepare for something bad. I ave to have income to pay some monthly commitments. So what else I can do?? I don't have my own transport. So I can just find job that no need for me to move from one place to another. I think dropship is the only thing or work that I can do. However, I think I just wrongly join that company. Because in that company, they really push you and I really never like their culture. I just joined . Consider laaa.. lagipun dropship dia dah ramai. Pastu nk kena compete lagi. Susahla nk explain. Yg pasti this things made me cry everyday.. In this business, Dropship is level paling bawah, then you can naik jadi egent and so on. Masa first nak join jd dropship tu dia dh tnye kenapa nk join?? klau setakat nk tambah income buat kerja lain pun boleh tambah income. Klau nk join mesti cita2 tinggi . Klau org tnye kenapa join sbb nk jadi jutawan.. Ubah mindset... Tu semua kata2 diorang la yg aku x boleh hadam dlm hidup aku. Aku stress giler rasa hidup x bebas ... Wajib buat marketing everyday....  I just nk join dropship yg chill chill je .. xyah ar nk over sgt. Aku bukan la nk kutuk dorg .. I just wanna luahkan apa yg aku rasa.. 

    I mmg nk quit ar x lama lagi... Hopefully cepatla boleh dpt kerja baru.. Rasa serabut sgt hidup. Aku tahu Allah bg ujian mengikut kadar kemampuan kita. Kita kena sangka baik dgn Allah. Allah baik. Allah sayang kita.... okay bye

Ramadhan 1441 h

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   As everyone aware, that we are celebrating Ramadhan in the MCO situation for this 2020. So it is something that we never had before. Never la I think sepanjang 26 years ni. It's okay we should be grateful. Everyone is being positive 

and be grateful. There must be hikmah for this. 

    Actually it is a bless for Muslims. I feel that. Allah really give us the time and opportunity untuk lebih dekat denganNya. I personally feel bless and grateful. This is the first time we ( the whole family)  praying jemaah. Feel like crying 😭. The last time we pray jemaah like this is during we stayed at quarters and I still in primary school. It was very long time ago. And now Allah give us the opportunity again... Baiknya Allah... kebetulan aku pun dh balik stay dgn family and adik aku pun dh balik duduk sini and adik yg dkt U pun balik b4 Pkp.  Nobody of us pun yg kahwin lg. 

( inshaaAllah one day Allah takdirkan utk kahwin then kahwin la and now just usaha gain the knowledge and never stop doa) So now everyone is here and we pray jemaah. I wanna keep this memory and the kenangan in this blog. Semoga dapat tingkatkan ibadah kita pd Ramadhan kali ni ya. ALHAMDULILLAH 

Movement Restrict Order (MCO)

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      Its been a long time I'm not updating my blog. Actually I feel like to write this just to keep memories of this phenomenon in my blog. As we all know, the MCO started on 18/3/20. Everybody got shocked including me cause we never undergone this kind of situation. 

      There are so many things that people are worried about. Works, family, groceries and many more. So, on the 17th I went to work as usual because need to get the answer from boss. At last the management said that we need to clear our annual leave. Then , what can we do right. Just clear all of our leaves. We are just the employee right??... Then when PM announced that the MCO would be continued to the second phase. So, the hotel close until 30/4. For the time being laaa. because we don't know what will happened in the future. we have to take unpaid leave. So skrg ni the problem is for this second phase of MCO, one car only one person. You know that I don't have my own car. Everyday I will tumpang akak siti, or ayah, or my adik or just naik bas rapid. So how??? Bosss suruh dtg kerja tp aku x de own transport nk ikut rules tu. Japgi roadblock LAGI..... Faham tak??? stresssssss....................

        One more thing, i think i dh pernah tulis pasal dilema ni. You know my dream jobs available bnyk dkt area KL selangor. But still I don't have my own transport to go to work. Klau tmpt yg ada LRT ok lg. Yg dkt Sepang, Bangi,... masa dkt Putrajaya dulu pun dh seksa tau. Publicn transport situ teruk sgt.... Sedih laaa fikir... Aku sedih bila nmpk iklan kerja kosong kerja yg aku nak tp aku x boleh nk apply sbb dkt Kl or selangor............

oklah byeeee

2020

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   How fast time flies... 2020 already and January almost done. I'm already 26. My azam this year are the same as 2019 because yg 2019 pin belum tercapai. Its okay... Keep on usaha, doa and tawakkal. Allah will give on the right time.

    Okay, the story is about my life right now. Alhamdulillah. During end of 2019, I keep on applying jobs via a lot of medium. So alhamdulillah, I got a few of interviews that to be attended including for PSH dkt Putrajaya. Some at KL area, some Penang. My parents only allow me to go to Penang and KL only. So, I was very sad cause I was desperate need a job. Okay then I got one IV at Penang. The Interviewee explained to me the tasked I need to do. So, I was quite interested with the job. Just that the gaji is not that much maybe the engineering company is not a big company and also it is quite far at Bayan Lepas. I need a car to go to work. So basically that is my big problem laa until now. So after that I've been offered work at hotel quite near la to my house. At the same time, I've been offered to the engineering company. Actually, I prefer to work at the engineering com because I can gain more experience. But what can I do, I need to follow my parents. Now i still work at hotel as account receivable. That is for temporary laa. Not having any plan to continue here. However, I dh start okay with my colleague here. Sama ada yg dkt front desk, which are my adik2, at Sales, and my department, akak siti and esther. However, biasa la ada juga yg perangai x berapa okay. Entahlaa... you know people outside baik. its not I am suuszhon to everybody. this people said bad about this people and some other people said bad about others pulak. I don't like laa this situation. X baik laa nk buruk burukkan org. mngadu dkt bos org ni x buat kerja... I didnt expect that chinese working culture is like this. I thought chinese people are bersatu padu. I mean they will support each other. I've been told like that. Hope that no one will read this. takut la nowadays semua nk viral. I just write what I feel. I treat this as my not so diary.

Okay lah.. enough laaa I pray we are save from the Corona virus ameeeen. B4 that always remenber to always listen to our parents barulah hidup berkat. Okay...